Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I had a binge last night for the first time in WEEKS. I had bites of danish, cake, everything I had deprived myself of. And the guilt afterwards was tremendous. I realized that this whole vicious cycle was about to start all over again. And I think it was the push I needed to see the state I'm really in.
I just have forgotten how to eat and treat food like a normal person. Even when I was relatively happy with my life and not restricting or bingeing, I would still throw up my food. I would still use it as comfort. I have been fortunate enough to have never been technically overweight or obese. But I have felt the effects of food addiction.
I just want my life to move forward. I don't want to be in my twenties, bouncing in and out of centers, my life disrupted by food. Food shouldn't control me, I should control it.
I really really want to be normal. I just don't know how.
Any insight you have would be great, ladies...about how to start incorporating normal meals, etc. I saw a nutritionist for awhile, but she didn't seem to grasp how hard it was for me to dive right into eating normally.
I just have forgotten how to eat and treat food like a normal person. Even when I was relatively happy with my life and not restricting or bingeing, I would still throw up my food. I would still use it as comfort. I have been fortunate enough to have never been technically overweight or obese. But I have felt the effects of food addiction.
I just want my life to move forward. I don't want to be in my twenties, bouncing in and out of centers, my life disrupted by food. Food shouldn't control me, I should control it.
I really really want to be normal. I just don't know how.
Any insight you have would be great, ladies...about how to start incorporating normal meals, etc. I saw a nutritionist for awhile, but she didn't seem to grasp how hard it was for me to dive right into eating normally.
Your thoughts are in the right place.. no one wants to be in and out of treatment while their life passes by. recognizing this can be motivation for you to stay out of treatment facilities and beat this disease. I incorporate food when I can by making it fun. Trying foods or recipes that are different. just the other day, I made breakfast sushi.. healthy, delicious, and fun.
i have been working out my recovery with my treatment team and god for 2 solid years, and am just beginning to learn how to eat right. so don't feel awkward that you don't know how to behave right with food yet. that may come later for you as it did for me. the first thing i would encourage you to do is to tell someone you love and trust. if that's already done, then please seek help from a few face to face support groups in your area or a 12 step program like overeaters anonymous, eating disorders anonymous, or food addicts anonymous. if you can't find meetings for these programs in your area, they can be attended online for free. does your doctor know? if not, tell him/her. you may also want to seek counseling. please try and make sure that if you choose individual therapy, your counselor/therapist is qualified to treat your specific issues. like doctors, therapists have medical specialties, and not all of them are qualified to treat eating disorders. for example, my therapist specializes in trauma therapy. although ED's aren't her specialty, she has exstensive experience treating them. i hope i helped. never forget, we are always here to listen. even if no one you know is online, you can post 24/7. by the way, none of us "know how to be normal" either. that's what recovery is all about- learning. god bless.-fallon