Welcome!
Yes, please DO be scared about what you are doing to your body. Bulimia is a no-win situation that will do nothing for you but mess up your metabolic system, screw up your teeth and stomach and send your whole system into a whacked out nightmare. That's the bad news.
The GOOD news is that you CAN recover, and the fact that you are here opening up to us is a really good sign that you want the help and are willing to reach out to get it. You mentioned that you don't look like the type to have an ED - many people with bulimia don't. That doesn't negate the fact that you are in serious need of help and are harming your body. Please consider going to seek professional help via a counselor or talking to your doctor. Stats show that the sooner people get help for their EDs the better chance they have at recovery.
Also, keep posting here. This is a very encourage group that will help support you through your journey:)
HUGS
Jen

Thank you! I've started going to a counselor and I'm taking baby steps. I know what I'm doing is unhealthy and I want to stop. Thank you for supporting me!

My mom has been bulimic for about 50 yrs and my brother and I wonder how she is still alive....know please that this affects children HUGELY in so many ways...the secrecy, manipulation, worry about her dying any second...know that it costs $$$ in dentist bills, and the loss of food when there are poor starving ppl....I dont know if that helps with perspective or not...know you are loved and that your body can also be thought of as the home of God and he wants a nice safe place to live...Hugs

So glad to hear you are seeing a therapist and that you understand what you are doing is not healthy. Baby steps are perfect when it comes to healing. I have a saying I saved in my phone "it doesn't matter how slow you go as long as you don't stop"

Welcome and so glad you shared with us! That is a HUGE, terrifying step! I agree with what everyone has shared on here but also want to reiterate that you can suffer from forms of anorexia (atypical anorexia) without being severely underweight or underweight at all. Starvation and restriction are still an ED no matter your size. Most people struggle with both binge/purge behaviors as well as restriction/starvation patterns. A counselor well educated in ED treatment is key, so hopefully the person you have connected with is a good fit. Know that it is scary to start ED treatment and painful and often the behaviors get worse before they get better and that's ok, that's normal! This is an illness that takes years to recover from, so have patience towards yourself and your journey. Please keep us updated on how things are going for you!

Welcome to the group!

Good for you for starting to see a counselor....that is a huge step, and one that will prove invaluable along your recovery journey. I'm so glad you found us and shared your story here....many of us can relate with what you had to say. Please keep us posted on how you are doing!

Misconception is that people with eating disorders are underweight. Actual reality is most bulimic are in normal weight range. Eating disorders are when a person has an unhealthy relationship with food and are engaging in harmful behaviors and thoughts. I'm glad you see this now and are reaching out.
I suffered 14 years of bulimia and anorexia. I have had $8,000 in dental work, heart enlargement, chronic gerd, decreased gastrointestinal motility and esophageal damage, chronic heartburn (I have to take tums before every workout) and chronic constipation due to nerve damage I also have calcification deposites on my sacrum causing low back pain from hell. Damage is real, it is irreversible and scary. This will kill you eventually and that is the reality. But you taken the first bold step, noticing there's a problem and seeking help. I'm sure the counselor will help tremendously.
Welcome here, we support eachother towards recovery