me and a close friend started skipping lunch to try and lose weight but now I’ve been doing that for around two weeks and I’ve just recently started drinking salt water to make myself throw up and I’ve tried purging but haven’t got close to throwing up and I’ve been eating but eating slowly and eating less. What is this called as an eating disorder I don’t know what type ive got?
I am reaching a point in my life where I have come to realize that I can never be healthy. I'll always either be fat and happy with myself, or anorexic and have the approval of everyone in my life. I say "fat and happy" because, strange as it sounds, I've come to realize that I AM more comfortable with myself when I'm overweight. Even though I realize that a morbid excess of weight is unhealthy...
So...Just two more days until 2019. Fast, huh? It’s making me get all emotional because that was the year I planned to commit suicide. I haven’t a clue how, but I know it’ll be on the month of May. I just don’t see a will to move on anymore.