Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Stupid I know. I didn't work out this morning and now I am freaking out. I am posting all over the place just to distract myself so I don't go change clothes and hit the cardio. I know I am doing my body a HUGE favor by taking the day off. I know I have to. I haven't had a day off from my work outs in months (usually twice per year). I guess this is my one for 2012. Now I have to eat? I was supposed to eat my hard boiled egg a half hour ago. I know I need to go into the kitchen and eat it NOW. Ugh but I can't stop thinking about the surplus of calories. I never have a surplus. My body needs this as I have to admit my hair is starting to dry out. I can't blame the weather and I know that if I don't make changes soon, it will start to fall out again. My pants don't fit, too lose. My weight and body fat have dropped lower than then they were a year ago. I know I am slowly spiraling down again. How can I "know" all this and still not be able to do what I "know" is right.
I know that if I just go work out, the anxiety will be gone. I will be disappointed that I didn't skip my workout but at least I won't feel like a failure. NOOOOO... I am not going to work out and I will go eat my egg. But... OMG is this fight worth it? Need support!!!!
I know that if I just go work out, the anxiety will be gone. I will be disappointed that I didn't skip my workout but at least I won't feel like a failure. NOOOOO... I am not going to work out and I will go eat my egg. But... OMG is this fight worth it? Need support!!!!
All I can tell you is for me, I couldnt "think" my way out of it. I knew all sorts of things. I knew how many calories were in a bagel, I knew how long it would take me to burn it off.I also knew that purging could kill me dead on the spot. I knew I was ruining my teeth. I knew....blah blah blah. I just couldnt stop.
I needed alott of help. I got it.
You should know that help is available. What are you doing to help yourself today?
It is a disease. That is why we go in circles, fighting it every minute of everyday. All I know is if I can do the next RIGHT thing, healthy....I will have accomplished a lot. ....My clothes are way too big this year. for winter and summer both.
Like you said, stick to the norm' tomorrow. and try not to beat your self up.. we do enough of that already. k. Hang in there.
It is a disease. That is why we go in circles, fighting it every minute of everyday. All I know is if I can do the next RIGHT thing, healthy....I will have accomplished a lot. ....My clothes are way too big this year. for winter and summer both.
Like you said, stick to the norm' tomorrow. and try not to beat your self up.. we do enough of that already. k. Hang in there.
We need to do it for ourself . I am learning how to be HONEST about EVERYTHING. =( secrets keep you sick
In a couple of weeks I will be going IP -admitted ED treatment. the waiting list is a couple weeks away. Otherwise my ED will KILL me
and yes, telling our ED "NO" , does make us stronger.
You have not failed. Your eating disorder was fighting you. so please, don't think you are a failure. cuz you AREN'T ....
seek attention from doctor,,or therapist. I am really new to all of this.