Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I'm starting to feel stressed out. I am required to get a physical by a doctor so I can keep going to counseling. I get why, but still.......I'm not a sack of bones. I just really got fully back into Ana last month. Before, apparently the disorder was still there (it's still weird admitting to having an ED), but I ate more. I know it was good that I allowed my roommates and my counselor to find out, but I kind of regret it. I like that I'm losing weight.....in a couple of months, I would really be in control of Ana, and I would be so close to my target weight. I like restricting, even if a little. I like staying in control...and I feel like I'm starting to lose control.
I don't like physicals. I don't want to get a stupid physical! It's not just about the restricting, starving, and binging.....I hate physicals because of other issues too. I know that getting a physical is going to bring out unwanted emotions. It's really staring to stress me out the more I think about it. I'm not even skinny yet, so I don't see what the big deal is! When I was younger, I was always restricting and starving. I never binged, and my ED was a way of life. I didn't even think about it. At least I'm more careful with it and I'm in control of it now. It's not like I'm recklessly starving myself...I've never been a bag of bones, so why do I have to get a physical? I get why it's a good idea...but still. I don't want to go to the stupid doctor. Why can't I just sign some document saying I was advised to go to the doctor and didn't, so the school isn't liable in any way? That would be way better. I'm so far from being in any danger, so even if I don't go to the doctor for months, I should have that choice! It's so annoying :(
I don't like physicals. I don't want to get a stupid physical! It's not just about the restricting, starving, and binging.....I hate physicals because of other issues too. I know that getting a physical is going to bring out unwanted emotions. It's really staring to stress me out the more I think about it. I'm not even skinny yet, so I don't see what the big deal is! When I was younger, I was always restricting and starving. I never binged, and my ED was a way of life. I didn't even think about it. At least I'm more careful with it and I'm in control of it now. It's not like I'm recklessly starving myself...I've never been a bag of bones, so why do I have to get a physical? I get why it's a good idea...but still. I don't want to go to the stupid doctor. Why can't I just sign some document saying I was advised to go to the doctor and didn't, so the school isn't liable in any way? That would be way better. I'm so far from being in any danger, so even if I don't go to the doctor for months, I should have that choice! It's so annoying :(
Physicals can make you nervous - even if youre healthy some of us just dont like the intrusion into our personal space. But even if youre not a bag of bones it sounds as though you do have an ED and it would be good for you to continue counselling. And so the necessary evil of the physical. Once you get back into counselling you could discuss with your counsellor how it made you feel. Thats important too. So good luck. Hope it goes/went OK for you!