It's all part of the disorder, you are ill, and those are not ok. are you seeing a Dr, a therapist? you should be. I don't know how long you've been on here, but not to long ago a dear friend on here (with a husband and two kids) who was ready for treatment, went on vacation..she never came back...her disorder killed her b.c she waited to long to get help. You have a daughter to care for you so you and this disorder don't get to come first, you aren't "keeping it from her" she see's how you eat (or how you don't eat) whether you realize it or not, she see's how under weight you are, she see's the difference between her mom and other moms...Don't teach her all your disordered eating..it's not purposeful but trust me it happens...it's where I learned my behaviors...you can't hide that kind of behavior even if you never eat in front of her that speaks volumes. YES, you have an issue...don't let ED convince you otherwise.
hugs

I'm going to have to agree with Jess here. Because I remember when I was young, too young to really understand anything about food or eating disorders, how my mom would always be dieting and working out like crazy, but was always a bigger woman. While my dad was the very tall almost anorexic looking one who never ate breakfast and when coming home late would most times not eat a proper dinner but some peanuts and a beer. I was never taught proper eating habits as a child which is why i believe I have my issues with food today. Also seeing my mother trying so hard to loose weight and never achieving her goals and my dad always being so incredibly thin. Theres more to it im sure but I have no doubt in my mind that this is whats triggered it and now im left to battle it on my own. So again, I agree with everything Jess has said, while you think you're doing no harm to you or your daughter, you are. And in a lot of ways, im sorry to say, you're being selfish in a life you are sharing with your daughter.

YES it is the disorder that is telling you that you are ok when you are not...

you now c/s is not a healthy behavior... being thrilled with being too skinny.... not healthy either...

how on earth do you actually believe you are keeping this from your daughter? she must see how skinny you are, or she will realize it some day...

my mom only drank late at night, i hardly saw an of it.... but her unhealthy mental status affected me... dont live in denial babe... an addict i an addict, and you are an addict..

think about getting help

DISORDER! DISORDER! DISORDER!
Ok, bitch side coming out, you've been warned. It's not directed at YOU, but it is directed at ED/ADDICTION. Honey. I don't mean to be harsh... you are so knee deep in denial! You feel as though "oh, no big deal" no schlant. Nothing can happen to you. NOT! I didn't know the young lady that passed away on here, her story however absolutely BROKE MY HEART. This disease KILLS! You have to know this. You don't seem like an ignorant person. No matter how much you "hide" this from your daughter, she knows. Trust me, she knows. I hide it from my dog and husband, THEY KNOW. (yes, I said my dog). I cannot agree enough w/ Yazzz!!!! Please, get help!!!! Please.

I agree with everyone, especially if you think your daughter does not suspect something... We as parents do not give them enough credit... They are smart... They know, maybe not that you have ED, but something is not right... My daughter is 8, and I thought I wa shiding it from her.. Then you realize, here and there little things.. You find your self making comments, that you think they do not hear or do not think anything of them.. Be careful, and be aware of your surroundings... I wish you well, and hope you get some help.. There is no room for ED...
Peace..

im like that.if im on a high from like caffine or whatever i dont care that im damaging my body by doing this to myself. but i know its ed and nnot be talking! take care hun! x

Thank you all so much for your support and input. Sorry I have not returned your posts sooner. I had been on the fence about meeting with my therapist for a second session. However, after reading your responses, I have continued to go and have a third session scheduled. I am also opening up communication with my daughter to try to keep the focus on "health" and not weightloss, etc. Thanks again everyone!

how are you feeling?

I am actually feeling great, which I know is in part to struggling with the denial. I love the way I look and I get enjoyment from c/s and so I went out and bought some "treats" for my birthday and enjoyed a great c/s binge. I didn't feel guilty but happy that everything tasted so good. Again, denial of the problem. I know that this behavior only works because I am alone and no one to hide from (except my daughter). But this would definately interfere with any relationships if I had them. I have another appointment with my therapist this week so we will see what he says. Thanks for the support... I know I need to face this problem, but it is so hard.

well i had a few binges the last week, and yeah they feel great I know it. nothing feels as good as getting "high" but i felt bad after wards... so Im trying to get it under control.

it is so hard.. addiction is not easy babe... dont give up.

I bumped a C/S dangers post for you

This is ED talking. You are not okay. Please seek help.