Well..I havent been in this support group in awhile and I do feel bad for that. I need to come more offten. I have been a rude person. (sigh)I am gonna vent and I dont know what to do anymore. So I am a recovering anorxic/bulimic. I have been in been in recovery for about 4 yrs now. Well I am wanting to go back to my old ways. I know it is not right. Everyone is commenting to me about my weight,what I eat,working out. Plus I am in my friends wedding this April. Im freaking out. My fiance' said to me tonight " after cleaning and having a good work out doing that your gonna eat a piece of candy?" she gave me such a "oh my gosh your gonna eat that. How dumb are you look". It really hurt. She is like but I love you. Then my mom said to this woman at a wedding we went to. The woman asked if I wanted some chocolate from the table. They were gift things on the table for people. Anyway the woman asked if I wanted any and my mom responded before I could and said "Does it look like she needs any?" Then mom added really fast "cuz she has 10 in her purse". They all chuckled. I know mom was joking and I didnt have any in my purse. It is just suckie. everyone is talking about my weight. Another friend said "wow you have put some weight on. you should try and lose it."

Yes I have put on weight due to my asthma and other medications I am on. they make me bigger than I want to be. Now I am overweight. I dont know what to do. Sometimes the old ways look so good. Anyway thanks for listening to me.