Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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SeekingStrength19 11/30/2007

I'm out of control. I've been binge eating for the past three days. Unfortunately, I don't purge. I can't bring myself to do it. So I just keep gaining and gaining and gaining.

I recently started dealing with abuse issues from childhood. I know I'm depressed and am suffering with PTSD too. I started seeing a therapist about 3 months ago but, so far, he's been little help.

Anyway, I need to STOP eating. Why can't I stop eating? I'm not hungry ... and I'm feeling sick from all of the food. I know I'm killing myself but I still can't stop.

I feel like a mental midget. Why can't I flip the "self control" switch?

Anyone else go through this and survive? What can I do to save myself?

deleted_user 12/01/2007

get a new therapist that will help you better because there is no reason not to be helped if you want the help. I'd also suggest a nutritionist because he/she can tell you how many calories you need daily and also come up with a full meal plan for the day. I'd say when you get to the meal plan point and you feel you want more get out of the house and go on a drive,walk, read, take a bath and journal all your feelings at the time whether they make sense or not.... it's hard to distract yourself but you can do it! take care.

Juice 12/01/2007

I feel empty inside, even when I've eaten, and I think it's because when you've been abused as a child you're hurt in a way that seems to need sensory comfort, such as eating. Bizzarely, I eat less when I'm actually feeling hungry than on days when I've binged.
On the bright side, not purging is good, because it's damaging. Flicking your self-control switch will be even harder if you have to battle with that aswell.
If you feel you're not progressing with your therapist it might be worth looking at a new one. It could take a while to find one you gel with.

deleted_user 12/01/2007

You should probably see anoher therapist. If after 3 months not much is happening it's time to find someone who can get you to deal with your issues deep down. I will probably hurt like crazy but you need to do it if you want to get healthy. And see a nutritionist to get a food plan. Try to follow it religiously. May be if you eat many but small meals you can stop overeating

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