hi all some background,. i am a 48 yr old mom with 2 beautiful daughters. my oldest is 23, beautiful,and confident. my youngest is 21, beautiful, talented, and anorexic. she has battled this since she was 12. i have always been by her side ( even 2000 miles away) her biggest supporter, and done all the research, learning that i can. she went went to treatment at Rosewood Ranch in AZ. ( i hope i'm not breaking any rules by mentioning the place) I went througgh the family week and let me tell you it was rough! i thought i knew the things i did wrong.....i was wrong! so i am in no way new to this disease. i know all the warning signs, until i started looking at myself in the last year. i have always been what i guess is a disordered eater. i dont eat till maybe dinner i just dont think about it. i always had a decent figure, my weight stayed pretty low, and as a rule food wasnt an issue. i was in a car wreak 10 yrs ago and since then my weight has flucuated up and down a lot. in the last year though, i noticed that in am looking at my body a lot different, part may be age, but right now i am at my lowest weight since teenager. my brain is saying im too thin but when i look in the mirror thats not what im seeing. im starting to binge then not eat much for days afterwards. im starting to exercise in ways that are not healthy for me, stacking wood, mowing and weed eating the yard, things i am not supposed to do due to my injuries/disabilities. i am becomming obsessed with my weight and body. when someone tells me " youare getting too thin" i say ya i know, im working on it and trying to eat more, when inside im secretely thirlled by the comments and i have no intention of eating more. again, i hear what im saying, i know from all i have been through with my daughter yet all of a sudden here i am. help people! i dont know what to do.i feel i cannot talk to my daughter even because after all we have been through i should know bertter and she would be so disappointed in me. so please! i need someone to talk to and help me.