Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
hi, im sorry i havent been on much epescially on here, but i really need advice.....i have too options and idk which one to take cuz they both sound good.
i had an assessment with the renfrew center a few weeks ago, day treatment program was recommended for me because of the lack of support i get at home, the want me hospialized but my insurance wont cover it until i do the next level before residential, because of the extreme weight loss etc
anyways...
my mom doesnt want me to go to renfrew because she feels like i dont need it, but honestly i think she doesnt want to have to deal with a daughter that is so fucked up in the head she has to go to treatment just to eat...so she said if i dont go, shell order me nutrisystem food so that i "can still be on a diet and be in control of my meals and portions and i can start eating everyday " i workout everyday at my max and so she said if ur on nutrisystem and are exercising as hard as u are ull lose weight and be happy, u dont need renfrew
im conflicted cuz i like my moms idea..ill be happy continuing to lose weight but i know these demons in my head will get worse but i dont wanna lose control....like im willing to lose control but i dont want to im scared...idk
go to renfrew (where i could gain weight, lose all the control i have and be sad again cuz ill be fatter) or go with my moms idea ??
im conflicted
i had an assessment with the renfrew center a few weeks ago, day treatment program was recommended for me because of the lack of support i get at home, the want me hospialized but my insurance wont cover it until i do the next level before residential, because of the extreme weight loss etc
anyways...
my mom doesnt want me to go to renfrew because she feels like i dont need it, but honestly i think she doesnt want to have to deal with a daughter that is so fucked up in the head she has to go to treatment just to eat...so she said if i dont go, shell order me nutrisystem food so that i "can still be on a diet and be in control of my meals and portions and i can start eating everyday " i workout everyday at my max and so she said if ur on nutrisystem and are exercising as hard as u are ull lose weight and be happy, u dont need renfrew
im conflicted cuz i like my moms idea..ill be happy continuing to lose weight but i know these demons in my head will get worse but i dont wanna lose control....like im willing to lose control but i dont want to im scared...idk
go to renfrew (where i could gain weight, lose all the control i have and be sad again cuz ill be fatter) or go with my moms idea ??
im conflicted
i no just how you feel. I deff see how you are conflicted but one thing you have to remember is, the part of you that wants to keep losing weight is the demon disease part of you. The disease part wants you to keep losing weight even if that means you getting to the point where your mother will end up having a funeral for her own daughter. you dont want that do you? ik that is a scary thought but it is true if you dont get help. im an anorexic so i do see where you are coming from. The right thing for you to do is go into this treatment program. yes u will put on more weight but in those types of programs that help u deal with the emotional side so you wont feel like ur fat. u will actually be healthy and happy. I personally dont no what that feels like but I will be looking forward to hearing about your recovery :) ik you can do it! message me if you ever need some extra support!
ive talked to my mom about dying cuz of this ed and she said that i wont cuz im not anorexic skinny, which im not. i want treatment...i was thinking maybe just an op therapist that specializes in ed? that way i can do nutrisystem and workout without being confined and still lose weight and work out my emotional stuff?
Going into treatment was the BEST thing I could have done for myself. It literally stopped the vicious cycle I was in. Yes, you can see someone once a week for 45 minutes, but it pales in comparison to a treatment program when things get that bad.
I wish you the best....
MS in mental health counseling here and recovering AN. It sounds like your mom is in denial. She doesn't want you to go to treatment because that would mean your illness is real. She may blame herself on some level. Disregard what she says and gently speak to her truth. I am glad to hear you are going to go to treatment.