since ive moved back home ive had to start the whole support thing again. I cant have a counsellor coz my doctor doesnt really have any that would take me on. So the psychiatrist was his next best thing.

Yesterday i had the second part on my assesment and im not really sure what happened. i told her that although i was eating i ate as little as possible and that my self harming was pretty much stopped, but i also told her that i was really struggling and really worried that my starving myself was coming back. I told her all the things that had triggered it before and where i had been and come from.......

Her response was 'everyone stops eating from time to time and has a poor diet. Doctors over react when they hear you arent eating and threaten to send you to hospital but its because they dont no what else to do and worry'. then to top it all off after all the work id done on talking to people and trusting people she said that i should deal with it myself! 'she told me that i couldnt go see anyone at the eating disorders clinic coz i wasnt dying or at serious risk. she also said i wasnt ill enough for any help.

i can not believe she justified starving myself and not eating properly saying it was normal behaviour!!! i guess ill go back when im dying then! i really hope i never see her again.