Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Itzjustme 07/05/2011

alright so im not skinnyy....but i had thinner moments. during the winter time was my thinnest and i was going through my phone today just outa boredum and i stumbled on mirror pics that i took and i was soo muchh thinner than i am now....winter time is wen the eating issue got out and taken seriously since i was eating an orange or two a day and so wen my therapist got on me about it and told me to eat i ate and realized that i feel better wen i eat im not tired or weakk or cold and so i kept eating and now im here...fatttt...the picture i saw just makes me wanna go back to my wayss:(

deleted_user 07/05/2011

Please continue your road in recovery and delete those pictures so they can't trigger you anymore.

kmw 07/05/2011

i get triggered by old pics too,its best just to not look at them hun and remember why u are on ur road to recovery!!

Itzjustme 07/05/2011

thank u for replying ladies...ill try to stay on this road..its soo hard tho:( hugss

SilentAddict 07/05/2011

Hun ur doing great dat was the past and NO MATTER how much we try to look like the past we never will fully. Ur beautiful now k u need not go back to that winter.
Smile huni ur beautiful :D
-Dia

Jolie3 07/05/2011

I think you are doing good but I definitely would delete the old pictures. Take some pictures of how you look now and use that for motivation. Don't let ED suck you back in.

SilentAddict 07/05/2011

I agree with all the encouragers k :)

Itzjustme 07/06/2011

thank u lovely ladies....that actually sounds liike a good ideaa but wen i see pics of me now its makes me so angryy....like im so madd i wanna cut myself to pieces....i really wanna go back to my ed behaviors....sooooo bad...i tried to make myself throw up today but that was a fail.....i just scratched up my throat...i wanna starvee.

right now tho idk wat going on with me..i feel so weakk...my edema is back and my foot is fat.

i just feel so bad for eating again...so bad for taking meds and so bad for letting Sid (ED) down. :(

peanutzz 07/06/2011

There's that ED always just trying to suck is back into the comfort of his deadly arms. Everyone here wants you to live your life and be happy. And then you have a disease that wants you dead. Glad you reached out for support.

Itzjustme 07/06/2011

ill always try to reach out...i really appreciate u guys understanding me

i really cant take it anymoree....i cant icant i cantttt:( back weni attempted suicide back in april this is how i felt....my weight...this pressure to be skinny...the feeling like its never gonna get better..its too muchh ...and this is wat i feel now...i wont try to kill myself but i think about it...im soo selfish ughhh....i just cant do this anymoree

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