I visit here every day and read every post...I try to post when I have something encouraging to say. I rarely write anything about myself but I am feeling really down and tired of dealing with this eating disorder and this depression. I am finally in my weight range (at the lowest end but I am there and I want to stay here even though it is so hard) but I worry about food all the time and about when I am going to exercise and if I have to eat out what the options will be and how it will be prepared and if it will fit in my meal plan and on and on. I worry about fitting exercise into my schedule even though I am still nursing a stress fracture. I am in a really good relationship but I try to avoid meals as much as possible because it is so stressful. I am going through a really serious depression and just getting through the days is hard right now...I pretend like all is well but it is so exhausting. I do have good support...I see a therapist twice a week, a nutritionist once a week, and a psychiatrist once a month. I am just so down right now. Will we ever be able to just be normal or is this a forever thing?