so,i thought i was getting better but conversation with my flatmate/best friend last night made me realise ed has just changed the rules and the way things are done. in september i started eating three healthy meals a day and wouldnt calorie count, slowly rules have snuck back in, like a have an amount of exercise i must do exeryday, not allowed more than a certain number of calories, only allowed a certain amount of carbs etc, i just cant change my thinking or break these habits, i dont know what to do, i have now had to admit i am losing weight, and i actually dont want to because i know eventually i will have to gain it back and i dont want to go through that process again, but i also cant make myself eat enough to maintain my weight. i am beginning to feel the effects on my health, all i wanted to do was be healthy and get on with life, i thought i was doing that but now i see i wasnt and i just dont know what to do and i feel helpless to do anything. sorry to rant.
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