Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Hi my name is Victoria and here is my story (TW numbers mentioned)
I was always on the chubbier side in high school. Around 200 lbs. or so. I was inspired by my gym teacher to loose weight and I just cut out junk food and drinking my caliries. I went to a size 12 and almost cried I was so happy. The summer after before college I lost more weight and ended up being around 140 lbs. During my time that time I started to restrict and lost my period. My doctor put me on birth control and I continued to loose weight. That next summer I went straight to 105 lbs. My family interviened and I recovered on 1800 caloires to 110-112 lbs. Then I meet my boyfriend who showed me a life with out calorie counting and I went to 115. After I had trouble with friends I relapsed into heavy exercise but never lost weight. when I graduated college I decided to fully recover. Got off birth control and began to eat. In a matter of 2 months it seems like I went from 115 straight to 140. My family noticed how much I was eating so I calmed down a bit. I am tring to eat intuitively now and be happy with myself.
Please tell me if you think I'm doing well and if Ill get my period back?
I think it is important to realize that everybody's story is different, as well as their recovery. Just so you know, I have heard many stories similiar to yours, so you are not alone. 15 years ago when I was severely anorexic I gained a little weight back, was steady for a few months and then all of a sudden my weight sky rocketed. I was scared out of my mind. But the most recent time that I lost a lot of weight, I have put it back on very slowly over a span of a few years, but I'm still uncomfortable with it. So either way, one is going to be most likely uncomfortable in gaining weight no matter what. Do you work with a dietitian? I know that mine is my saving grace. I constantly am paranoid as to whether I am eating too much, too little, or the right amount and so I need continuous reassurance from her that I am doing okay. She really helps put things in perspective for me.
As for your period, the fact that you did get it while you were on birth control is a wonderful sign! That means that your body is still able to function properly and you should get it back at some time. Once again, this varies from person to person. There have been times where I have been underweight and lost my period, and others when I didn't. Try to have patience with it, and if you are really concerned I would speak with your doctor.