i dont have to care either....

my mom told me to tell meredith (renfrew therapist) to stop harrasing her. she was like "ur not missing school for anything." then she was like meredith called her and told her that im really sick from what i described to her and i may not make it til May...i know i will but the fact my mom was like "do u know her better than me..no ..are u here with her no." and then my mom said i was dramatic for no reason...i made myself sound worst than i am and i told her than i answered her questions the way it is...when she asked me how a day of eating is i tell her. 2 days out of the week i eat 2 meals...the rest of the ay i just drink coffe and maybe have one meal. im not lying. and i told my mom that maybe she thinks im reallly sick cuz of what i told her about my health when she asked....and my mom was like what health...wtf ar eu talking about.

i told her that...
...i have the worst stomach pains (she said ive had stomach aches since i was a baby) and i told her i havent had an ulcer since i was a baby
...i am really anemic
....i havent had my period since october
...im always cold
....i noticed that i bruise easily but that cud just be cuz im a clutz
.....my body hurts all the time
...im dizzy all the time
....i could be sitting but then i run out of breath like i was running or my heart pump a little too hard
....etc

im not making it up but since she doesnt care....i dont have too....ill just waste away...ill get as thin as possible. ..i have 4 months til treatment...i officlaly stopped caring

im a very angry person..i dont mean to be but still....but no one knows all this pent up anger i have inside cuz i dont talk about it with these people called my family.........
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