I am struggling so badly just now. The past week has been awful and i am starting to realise that maybe i cant do this, its always going to come back and bring me right down. I am feeling so lost and i dont know what to do. I am letting everyone down and disappointing them. I considered stepping out in front of a car today, which i know is the most selfish and awful thing to think about and i was immediately horrified that i had thought it, but has just become too much. I dont want to think anymore, i dont want to do anything anymore. This has gotten worse instead of better andi just dont know how to turn things around!
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