I'm sorry you are feeling so hopeless and depressed. I really encourage you to see a doctor and therapist. You need help asap. hugs

you can do anything you truly want to do....

if you seek help you could do this !!

I wish you well, so sorry you are struggling, get it all out here and try again.

Are you just having a tough week or do you think that you won't over come this? It sounds to me like you've done a lot of things right. You've stepped back from school and talked to your parents. Those were huge steps to make. Things often get worse before they get better so maybe you aren't prepared for this. You can still get through it. Try to focus on just today. Don't worry about yesterday or the day before. What is done is done. You can only move forward if you choose to do so. Just because you relapsed doesn't mean you can't get right back up and keep going. Don't worry about tomorrow. You can't predict the future so just live in today and make your choices for today. It sometimes is easier if we take life a day at a time. Just live in the moment. You can do this!!!

Thanks for the advice! Ive been to the doctor and im on the waiting list to see a therapist but where i live it can take up to 6months to get one. It makes it hard to get through on my own. Thats why im really glad to have found this site and all its support. thanks again guys

Please hld on to anything that brings you hope. I know it is so hard to grovel through from day to day and seemingly nothing changes but just gets worse. It can get better. It takes time and there are setbacks which my friend just tells me. "hunni, when you fall just fall forward." and I laugh. how true it is. I have been going through a really rough patch as of late. others on here can atest to that. and the past two days have turned around my attitude. really I find that that is the only thing I have control over is my attitude my state of being. I went to my studio and painted again today and was renewd and inspired to dance instead of being rigidly still and stuck in my wants and my desires. I too have almost stepped aout infront of cars, run myself into concrete posts. etc. I get that way when I am not in today. when I am wallowing in the past of self pity or worrying in the future of can I? will I? truth is we only have today. I pray that evenif it is just five minutes. you can do for five minutes what you cannot do for a lifetime. and when that five minutes is up, say, "I can do for five minutes what I cannot do for a lifetime, and before you know it it will be bedtime and before you know it you have a new day to have a new attitude and new state of being. You can do this with help. Keep reaching out and never give up never. If I am still alive after all these years of my ED, and I little by little do get better even though it is slow. If I can do it anyone can. Thak you for your post and draw, write, sing dance walk, cry, talk, anything to get you to the next moment and then the next and then the next. prayers and hugs. sorry i=this is so long.

Heyo,

So, your on the waiting list to see a therapist. And now your giving up hope until then?

Hm.

Well, its a long, hard battle, but ya gotta keep fighting. There are going to be constant times when you feel like what your doing isnt working, or your not good enough for this or that recovery just will never happen. But you have to realize that with an eating disorder especially, it will latch onto what little loss of hope you have and make it into "things will never get better" because it doesnt want them to get better. So what Im saying is part of this is your eating disorder voice trying to get to you, and not necessarily what is truth, And therefore you CAN fight it, and CAN turn it around.

And heh, dont tell me you cant do nothin' right because youve come on here to talk to us so damn thats one pretty awesome thing. Your obviously a fighter so far as Ive seen you. Your pdoc knows and your on waiting list for a therapist. Thats 3 pretty huge steps youve taken to live.

Dont let the ED voice take advantage of you in your weakest moments. You are stronger than ED. Always.

The real test of strength in life is not how long we can stay strong but how we are able to pick ourselves up after a fall. Don't ever give up hope. Bad days, bad weeks, bad months will happen in life. Its through preserverance that we learn and become stronger and better than before. You are here for a reason. Explore all the parts of yourself and do things that make you feel good. Try to believe that you are worth this much. xxx email me.
Janet

are there any local support groups you could perhaps join whilst you wait for a therapist? This may help you in the meanwhile it sounds like you need all the support you can get right now, try not to isolate xxx