Get into therapy and get yourself help.
No one here is going to support you or give you accolades for starving yourself for 10 days.

And so I don't seem like a totally heartless bi-otch, I should add that if you are interested in recovery, we are all here to support you.

thanks. but therapy dosent help me anymore

Resisting your body's natural need of nutrients is not healthy mentally or physically. We all need food. We all eat. It's just how we function. There are so many people here and I'm sure in your life who love you and will support you through a recovery process. You just need to take the first step and eat so no one has to force you. Do this for yourself, your family now, and your family in the future. Your worth is not your weight. You are not your body. You are so much more. You have a soul. Do what makes your soul happy and LIVE. Sending hugs your way!!!

Agreeing with Forest 100%. We are here to support you if you are wanting recovery. Not eating is no bueno. How long have you tried therapy? What type? Not trying a Spanish Inquisition, but there are several different ways to go about it.

ive done therapy ever sense 2nd grade. and right now im just seeing a normal therapist

Just do the best you can daily. Take small steps, try try try. Don't give up, and don't think of yourself as doomed. The person who feels the most hopeless about this is not your friends or family or your care team: it's you! But you can change that - and it doesn't mean having to be "large" in size. It means that IF you trust God or your inner spirit guide, your loved ones, and medical experts, you too will feel better, more hopeful and well on your way. You don't have to gain XX amounts of weight, if you are letting that drive your fear and give you an identity. Your identity is yours, not ED's. Claim back what you know is true: you're strong and the more you push harder against this wave of misery by taking action (daily), the sooner you will realize how awesome recovery really, truly is.
Don't stop seeing your therapist, and take the meds they recommend if so. ((hugs))

I understand you want to lose weight so do I, I'm still struggling. What I try to do is think about nutrition first rather than how much of it I'm eating. Quality over Quantity. Instead of not eating try adding small things first like bananas or almonds. Then slowly add salads or something bigger but, healthy.

This board is for dealing with EDs, not for weight loss. Losing weight to become skinny is encouraging your ED, not actually dealing with it. For everyone on here who just wants to lose weight and not deal with the root problem, this support group is not for you.

ma248 thank you so very much. that means a lot

I know the feeling of wanting to lose weight. I'm currently struggling with my ED right now as well. The thing that has most helped me is thinking out food being fuel, try and convince yourself that you need this for energy and nothing else don't attach the things in the food to your thoughts, which I know can be really hard. Eating super healthy foods like salad or fruits helps with the regret that comes from eating. When I eat a bowl of strawberries I don't regret it so much as when I eat a bowl of chips. Eating healthy at least gives me the comfort of knowing I'm not putting the negativity toxins into my body. Eating healthy helps with thinking food is fuel because even if the calorie number or sugar becomes a thought know it's low calorie and sugar but all provides you with nutrients and will keep you healthy. I'm it sure if this helped but stay strong and I know exactly how you feel and how hard it can be and I wish you didn't have to deal with this because it's hard and feels impossible but you are so strong and you can do it!

alexia22 thanks ill try that

The notion of food as fuel or energy is accurate. Your body is a magnificent machine and all machines need fuel. Think of a high performance sports car - you can't go on a 8 hour, 800 mile road trip on 1/2 a tank of crappy gas. If fact, the car will have to refuel at least once, maybe twice along the way. That is was food is - it is the fuel necessary to function for the 24 hour road trip called life.