Eating Disorders Support Group
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I guess I've been dealing w/ ED for about 9 years. Once I became pregnant w/ my 1st child I ate for 4, whatever my heart desired. I remained 200lbs. for a while, got down to 175lbs and got pregnant again. This time I was very sick, so I didn't gain as much weight, but I was still 200 after having my son.
I became anorexic, I didn't get down to an unreasonable weight, but I didn't eat healthy. I started to binge again once I moved and had a career, putting on another 25lbs. After my kids' father and I broke up I was convinced that no one would even talk to me if I was as fat as I was, so I was anorexic again...Got down to 135lbs which is slightly underweight for me.
Then I got sick, and my coping mechanism was to eat...and eat and eat. I lost my job, went onto disability, and I just continued to eat. I'm back at 200lbs now.
I can't stand being in this body, I'm not treating it right, and I am on that constant roller coaster of don't eat for a week...then binge (but I don't purge)...and that binge puts every lb back on me. I fear for the health of my heart. After so many years of not feeding it well, or exercising, it's bound to be in rough shape.
I want to be on the road to recovery, I want to eat healthy, but I'm so incredibly picky at what I will eat, that I just don't eat a lot of times. If it's not what I want, I just won't eat it. I'm fat, and it's not in my head...BMI considers me obese. I just need some help on what to do in order to be healthy.
How do I force myself to eat the healthy things I want to eat when I'm so very picky, and I'm actually never hungry? I'm not asking you to tell me how to be anorexic or bulimic, I want to be healthy.
Thanks. (and sorry this was so long)
I became anorexic, I didn't get down to an unreasonable weight, but I didn't eat healthy. I started to binge again once I moved and had a career, putting on another 25lbs. After my kids' father and I broke up I was convinced that no one would even talk to me if I was as fat as I was, so I was anorexic again...Got down to 135lbs which is slightly underweight for me.
Then I got sick, and my coping mechanism was to eat...and eat and eat. I lost my job, went onto disability, and I just continued to eat. I'm back at 200lbs now.
I can't stand being in this body, I'm not treating it right, and I am on that constant roller coaster of don't eat for a week...then binge (but I don't purge)...and that binge puts every lb back on me. I fear for the health of my heart. After so many years of not feeding it well, or exercising, it's bound to be in rough shape.
I want to be on the road to recovery, I want to eat healthy, but I'm so incredibly picky at what I will eat, that I just don't eat a lot of times. If it's not what I want, I just won't eat it. I'm fat, and it's not in my head...BMI considers me obese. I just need some help on what to do in order to be healthy.
How do I force myself to eat the healthy things I want to eat when I'm so very picky, and I'm actually never hungry? I'm not asking you to tell me how to be anorexic or bulimic, I want to be healthy.
Thanks. (and sorry this was so long)
I have researched exactly what to do to lose weight, what to eat, in what portions, what exercises to do, my BF is like a health guru...but he doesn't get that sometimes when I eat I'm on "automatic pilot". Even with all this research though, I wonder...should I do it that way? b/c what if that's just meant for someone with a definitely healthy heart, and I don't know if mine is healthy or strong enough to do what regular people do. Maybe I'll talk to my aunt today. I need advice.
Thank you both. :)
I guess I'll just have to splurge for seeing a regular GP.