I know that it really gets tough keeping out those negative thoughts about restricting. I think its because we feel like when we eat we're cheating and that gaining weight is not a good thing but truth is if you're working out it might be muscle and you might need the extra weight! And i know my stomach feels different depending on what I eat, so let the feeling pass and don't get caught up on what the scale says. If you're eating and working out and you're healthy you should be PROUD of that and don't let your hapiness depend on the scale because you're beautiful no matter what.

It is so easy to be your own worst enemy. I can relate, I struggle every day with avoiding self sabatoging thoughts.

It has helped to write down 3 new affirmations a day and say them several times a day. Most importantly first thing when you wake up!

ie. "It is healthy to eat, I am beautiful the way I am, I am a deserving person"
Yes this may sound Cheesy...but we can change the way we think...keep putting positive thoughts every time you sway to negative ones, and you will find it easier to make it through the day. Eventually after a lot of hard work. You wont even have to put so much effort and your self esteem will sky rocket. You wont even see yourself in the negative aspects that you currently do.
Only surround yourself with postive people, eliminate anyone that stresses you in your life!