No..thats not going to help you...your gonna end up feeling even worse...Anorexia plays tricks on you and it wants you to believ that you have the control, but you really don't. Do you have a councelor or therapist..or someone who you trust that could help you reach more towards recovery? Recovery is really worth a try if you want to feel better and be happier. Its hard, but you will be a stronger person in the end..then you will really be in control...when you beat your disease down to the ground...good luck..

i can totally relate, but you CAN NOT let ED win!! It will get you nowhere.

-Debbie

You really don't want it back. I can totally relate to what you are saying though. I was in recoveryfor 5 years. There were a few times that I wished I ws anorexic again. It was those times when I would go shopping and everything was too small. At that time I thought anorexia was a thing of the past and would never happen again, that's why I thought nothing of it when I would say to myeself "I wish I was anorexic again." Anorexia came back in my about 2 1/2 years ago and it's a nightmare. Yeah, I admitt it is comforting at times, but most of the time it is a living nightmare. I've never been a cutter, so I don't know what that's like for you, but I'm sure that is no fun either. Try to get some help for your cutting. Don't turn to anorexia to cure the cutting.

I don't think you want ED back. Actually you never lost him, you just substituted him with cutting. I'm sorry hon but that was no progress. Cutting,ED, alcohol, drugs all the same: you avoid to deal with your problems and emotions and instead ingage with addictive behavior. So tomorrow instead of restricting you need to tell yourself :I'm going to start recovering. Don't do anything that is harmful and see a therapist. Find out why you think you need to suffer and work on that. That is recovery. You are such a sweet girl it hurts me that you want to give up.

i know the feeling. i cut and restrict. lately i've been purging. neither are healthy. there is more going on with us than the ed or si.. i think the key is finding out what exactly is driving us to take these extreme measures.

therapy is a good start, but a long road. i find journaling helpful. i know it takes alot of "self control" and "will power" to have and ed or si.... but i think it takes even more to not. there is hope, its just times. don't give up on yourself.

no never want ed back never babe focus on breaking free from self harming now hunny forget ed try to recover for self harm you are worth more than that

Start?? They call it relapse...but you're planning it..so it doesn't count.

But, yes, I agree, you should try and get help for your cutting...but not turn back to your ED. It's not worth it.

"Nostalgia is a seductive liar" Your ED is very sneaky. It is trying to seduce you, but it is all lies. This quote always helps me when ED tries to make me go back.

im anorexic...and i dont feel privileged at all.......