Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I have a challenge for everyone on here with an ED. lets kick this in the ass. wether you like having one or not. its not for attention like people think, its real. i have managed to pull myself out with no help but you guys. i have gone from 80 to 105. yes i still have thoughts of relapse and i wont eat certain things or more normal portions yet but its getting so much better. my challenge is for all of us to get through this. and i know everyone of you can and have the power. if you have strong enought will power to not eat and keep yourself from getting fat then you have the will power to eat healthy and normal portions for you to get to a healty weight for you. i want all of you to be healty and live along time. we are killing ourselves and not even knowing it. i got whats called limited gastro mobility from my anorexia and it shut down my intestines and after about 2 months of more normal eating im still having problems. dont let it get this bad!! i beg you. lets stop it while we can! :)
The interesting thing is I don't even miss it. Am I still frightened of gaining weight etc. Yes but not enough to keep killing myself. There is hope.
Also, after over a decade of suffering with an ED, I have no fear of the problems it will cause me. I actually welcome problems because it means I have a tangible reason to try and get better.
I've been hospitalised, put in a residential treatment, poked and prodded, also suffered from limited mobility (took medication in the hospital), told to gain weight, told to maintain weight, told to lose weight, etc etc. I've lost friends, relationships, and pushed my family away. I don't leave my apartment much anymore and my every day is started by thinking about what I'm going to eat. People don't trust me anymore, and I don't trust myself. I can't go to restaurants, I can't eat outside, I can't eat anywhere but in front of the television...or else I'll go into panic attack mode. I haven't been to the dentist in ages, because I know very well that I have bunches of cavities.
And yet, despite all that crap, I "refuse to get better." Sometimes, I guess you could say, I can't stop it anymore, because it's past that stage.
I tried to get better by myself several years ago, but I'm just back where I was...except worse.
I suppose years of this illness has made me cynical. I just think there is a difference between being realistic and being negative.
You all know as well as I do eating doesn't solve an ED. It's a mental illness that requires mental fixing. You're right though, it can cause lasting physical problems as well- all the more reason to check yourself into a good clinic when you're ready to recover.