Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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MelindaK.3 12/02/2016

I'm not even going to give the voices a chance to talk anymore, I'm not giving myself an option to just not eat, I'm not giving myself an option to throw up anymore. These are huge steps but I think I can make it. I've got a purpose. A huge purpose. I know what it is as clear as day and I need to live until God takes me so that I can fulfill this purpose as long as I can. I'm just tired of being sick, I hate it. By hurting myself

I'm hurting the ones who love me, too, and I can't make them hurt anymore. I just can't do it. And right now I'm volunteering at a daycare, and some kids are severely broken, emotionally, and mentally, and I'm trying to give them so much love that all they feel is love,and maybe the love they feel will drive out the hate that everyone gives them. I want to save everyone so badly but I cant and it drives me crazy, but I'm starting here. With loving kids. And I want to be here, alive and well, in the future, to help more and more kids every single day. They need me and I just can't leave them. I need them, too, honestly. Kids keep me sane. I love them more than anything. I'm going to recover for them.

and also I'd like to be here in the future to see the kids I work with when they're older, and see how they grew and just.

I'm going to recover. .

sonnycamehome 12/02/2016

Working with kids is a wonderful purpose to have, and I'm sure you really make a difference in their lives.

I truly believe recovery from ED is possible....just take things one day at a time, and remember we are here for support.

sunflower9 12/02/2016

There will be slip ups and mishaps and days you feel on top of the world and days you don't. That's all part of progress. And having found a passion with kids can be powerful towards recovery. But at the end of the day, you need to do this for you so then you can persue your passions and enjoy the rewarding feeling of helping kids and watching them grow. Recovery is possible and you have support.

CeeCee4 12/02/2016

That's so awesome that you have made this step and realized that you want recovery. Great job! I hope you have resources in place to help you achieve recovery. Counseling helps. Support network is important :)

Life_Is_A_Gift8297 12/03/2016

You should be EXREMELY proud of yourself! This is a great step towards beginning to love yourself and a huge step to make your life better. Wow I am so amazed by you. You are truly inspiring:)

MelindaK.3 12/04/2016

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shortysena1 12/04/2016

I agree working with kids does give you great purpose. I worked with kids a long time in the begging of one of my sever times. I however ended up having to quit because it got to hard to control it and the age I was working mimic behaviors so I didn't want to risk having them mimicking me.

MelindaK.3 12/04/2016

Ah yes, I understand. They bring out the best in me, though, and when I'm with them I hardly ever think about bad hings. Idk maybe if I ate with them that'd be different, but if I did eat with them I would probably pull myself through and eat because I love them that much and I would never in a million years do something bad around them so they could mimick me,, idk

LuckyEmpath 12/05/2016

I am glad you have found something you really love to do. Many people go their entire lives without finding that.

You say "some kids are severely broken, emotionally, and mentally, and I'm trying to give them so much love that all they feel is love" and this is so sweet. My first thought though was "What about giving yourself some of that love?" Many of us who develop ED's have done so because we are trying to cope with difficult feelings. Difficult feelings that are rooted in difficult or traumatic situations. Most times we have not learned to love ourselves and that actually fuels an ED because we often don't feel 'worthy' of anything good.

My feeling after reading your post is that it would really benefit you if you started to love your inner children as much as you love the children you work with. It is in loving yourself that you will heal. No amount of external gratification will heal you. It comes from within.

MelindaK.3 12/06/2016

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