I don’t see you as an ugly person. No, I’ve never seen you, but all people are beautiful. Now, I don’t expect you to believe that about yourself suddenly or anything. I would be a hypocrite if I did, because I struggle to believe it about me.
But I do know what it’s like to cling to an ED. I believe mine actually developed as a coping mechanism for my other mental illnesses and only really appeared about 8 months ago, so I don’t know what it’s like to struggle with these feelings for so long. However, I’ve struggled with urges to die for years, but I don’t believe that’s when life ends, and that’s one big reason I haven’t done it.
However, as I was saying, I have clung to my mental health obsessions, ED and an obsession with food, and at one point water, so strongly that mental health centers often tried to pass me along to other treatment locations because I was unwilling to change my ways of thinking or eating habits. Who am I kidding, I’m still like that sometimes, especially with CBT. I’m “resistant” and “stubborn”. Treatment techniques rub me the wrong way, pretty much all of them make me feel angry/irritated. The point is I know what it’s like to stick with an ED even when everyone’s telling you to let it go. I’m not gonna tell you to keep trying to overcome it: it’s your decision if you want to give it another shot. Just know you’re not alone in this struggle with ED, even if everyone’s story is different.
And I don’t know if it means anything, but I love you, because you are a fellow person and my faith inclines me to do so. And I think you’re extremely valuable.

FINALLY... someone actually understands and actually gives a fuck. FINALLY there's someone who is not pressuring me or judging me. THANK YOU thank you thank you. FINALLY someone, finally.
I honestly love you too, you are a god sent
If you need anything, I'm here

Anyone who says healing an ED is easy clearly has never tried to heal anything in their own life. Would they say the same to an alcoholic or drug addict? I doubt it. And for anyone who judges you, and states how disappointed they are in you, needs to take a look in the mirror because when we judge others we are really judging ourselves. I am very sorry your family has hurt you like this. ((Hugs))

Thank you also for support and for also understanding huggggs

Hugs. I'm struggling myself, so I don't really know what to say other than you're not alone. I'm so glad this place exists, otherwise I don't know where I'd go to say the things that we just cannot say to the people around us. I hear you and I hear your pain.

I'm sorry you are having a hard time with this right now. Sending you hugs to help you.