oops, I meant to say TAKE care of myself!

I'm so sorry that you are struggling so much....
Can you expand a bit and tell us what is going on?
HUGS
Jen

I'm stuck . I'm so ashamed about my weight, I'm a binge eater. Therefore, I"m afraid to go out side. I'm afraid to do anything. I'm afraid of what people are saying as I pass by. So, I hibernate in my house and have nothing to look forward to. Then the cycle of eating starts all over again. I have two grown children, but they live abroad. I hate my life. I wish someone would take care of me for a while.

Hi Jessica-- I am so sorry you are going through this, please know that you are definitely a worthwhile person and deserve to be taken care of, by you if by no one else. I know how it feels to not have loved ones close by; I live in CO and my whole family is on the east coast. My sis is abroad. But please be kind to yourself and realize that there is more to a person than their weight (I know I know, I should take my own advice lol). And know that you deserve the very best, which includes taking care of yourself... not for anyone else's sake, but for yours. If you ever need to vent, you can message me :-)

Its a bad place to be in when you hate your life. I know the pain of the hopelessness. Life can become worthwhile again. I suspect youre suffering from depression. I urge you to find ways to recover from the depression (possibly but not necessarily medication) and begin to find ways to make the changes (even if you cant imagine them right now) to make your life enjoyable. This is a long journey with ups and downs. Keep in touch. (((( ))))

Thanks everyone. It's nice to know that people care!

Sorry you are struggling with this pain of the ED Jessica.

For me, I found that my self-loathing, shame and self-hatred were some of the most powerful drivers for my EDs (anorexia/BED). The key for me, anyways, to recover was to dig underneath those feelings to discover WHY they were there in the first place. The self-hatred, yoyo-ing body weight, or binge behaviours are kind of like "symptoms" of a cold; they aren't the cause but the offshoot.

Does this make sense? Kim x

Yes, Kim that does make sense. I am working on that in therapy.