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jasgall 09/23/2010

so yesterday, after hearing me run through PORTIONS of 3 songs my voice teacher told me to pretty much STOP SINGING! STOP SINGING?! IS HE INSANE! i've been singing since i was 2. TWO!!!!! AS IN TODDLER! i will admit it, like many of you, i am terrified of rejection. the reason i sound all squeaky in front of him and the other music profs is because i am scared. i am keenly aware that they all know much more about my passsion than i ever will, and i am terrifid that they will think i'm not good enough. i cried and cried and cried yesterday.

today was my department audition. i fucking MURDERED I COULD HAVE DANCED ALL NIGHT-A SONG I CAN DO PERFECTLY WITHOUT THE ENTIRE MUSIC DEPARTMENT STARING AT ME.

i want to binge. i want to binge untill i don't care that they all hated me.

deleted_user 09/23/2010

hugs x it was obviously just a bad day, don't punish yourself over this. always here if u need to talkx

deleted_user 09/23/2010

I wish you weren't so angry at yourself and please don't binge. Your nerves got the best of you. There will hopefully another time soon to show your passion and talent.

deleted_user 09/23/2010

Sweetie I'm sure they didn't hate you ! Bet you sounded amazing ! Yes i am terrified of rejection ! And as you no it's recently happened but you have to try bed be positive and i do no how hard it is ! I am always here if you want to talk x x

deleted_user 09/23/2010

gosh... Im so sorry you are having a bad time. but look, binging or hurting yourself wont help.. at all.

My best friend is a singer, and she had to leave the department. it was awful and her dreams were shattered. But she made new dreams and moved on. she became a music therapist and works with the disabled.

Im not saying give up... but reality is reality....

I hope you feel better soon.

deleted_user 09/23/2010

i'm sorry. a hit to your confidence can really put anyone in a bad place.. are there any techniques that you use to manage anxiety in your daily life that you may be able to apply to singing in front of others?

i commend you for doing this because it takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there. don't give up on your dream, maybe talk to others that have experienced similar anxiety and ask how they have overcome or deal with it.

take care

deleted_user 09/24/2010

Never stop singing!

deleted_user 09/24/2010

So sorry.I understand how you feel.

jasgall 09/24/2010

thank you all for being so sweet. i'm going to talk to my advisor about switching voice teachers. i have the rest of the school year before i have to apply to stay in the music program and apply to the education dept. it has been a few years since i have had private lessons, and my basic skills are rusty because of it. maybe i should drop voice here and find a teacher off-campus. idk. i'll figure something out. all i know is i've felt god pulling at me to teach music since i was 14. i'm not giving up. by the way, i didn't binge. i posted here then saw my therapist.

deleted_user 09/24/2010

so proud of you not bingeing! i think you came up with some good ideas. dont ever give up your dream and passion.

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