Hi there,
I read your story and it seems similar as mine, except I am far from the 95 lb mark. I am a non-eater myself, especially worse in times of stress or depression. Plus sometimes when I'm alone I simply forget to eat-honest. It seems you do have a decent idea of food-you mentioned you "love food". I have battled my food issues for over twenty years and unfortunately I see food as evil-though I do bake for everyone when I am stressed. Lol Not to pry, but is this a new issue for you or have you dealt with this before the divorce and other stressors? I do agree that no matter what type of food issue folks have stress can attribute to it. All I can say is I think you came to the right place for support. SO welcome!

I think I have had this issue my entire life. I am by genetics small boned and slender with a high metabolism. But over the years I have become more and more aware of the connection to my desire to eat or not eat and stress and emotion.

I believe this started when I was a very young child. My mom was a stay at home mom and my father was a workaholic who never got home for dinner on time. Every single night at dinner, when he finally got home, the tension at the family table was so enormous I could barely stand to eat, but of course I had to clean my plate.

I can remember waiting till my mom was not looking and giving it to the dog. One night I was so upset I dropped it piece by piece behind the radiators. (It was a very old house).

I raised two children just fine and got past it, or so I thought, and they are very healthy eaters and amazing cooks. It is the stress and anxiety and and anger over things I guess.

I fantasize about food but then don't want it. I am very disordered.
But it is good to see why and thank you for welcoming me. This helps a lot.

Im not sure that I can help but some details in your story ring a bell. I remember from my own childhood having to wait until dad came home from work before the family could eat. Id be really hungry by then but dad would be tired and in a bad mood. It wasnt a relaxed place to eat - (actually just mentioned something related in a reply to The ED). I hadnt much thought of that being related to my developing and eating disorder but it could well have been one of several contributing factors.

When I was separating from my ex I basically cracked up. Its tough. Hang in there - the anxiety, the fear, the confusion do eventually start to clear up.

I think that many people are genetically one way or the other; either predisposed to gain weight or to remain thin no matter what. I have heard many stories from the heavy who wish to lose, and it is interesting to see it from the side of a thin person who wishes to get their disordered eating under control and gain to be healthy. Cheers to you for recognizing that! The only other thing I want to add is (because you are new here) to be sure to put TW or trigger warning if you are going to list a number or weight in your post. Numbers control many of us, and they are often hard to read. Thank you :)

I'm writing in concern for my 13 year old neice. My sister (her mom) has been noticing that she is not eating very much and making excuses for not eating. (This is a girl who was once chubby and loved to eat) She is now only eating about 700 calories a day and only eats certain things. Her mom keeps good track of her periods and they are always every 28 days but this month she has missed her period. Any advice or concern here? I though she should take her too the doc..but not sure if this is too soon and will this just make the prob worse. (If there is a problem) ??? Any advice would be greatly appreciated as I love my niece and don't want this to get out of hand and at the same time I don't want to make a bid deal and instigate it either..oh and she's definitely slimmed down..not at all underweight but worried she may be headed downhill if this isn't addressed earlier rather than later.

I'm naturally thin too, but when I was at my worst I dropped some weight. It doesn't seem like much, but it made me look sick. I'm now at a higher weight and have to watch it because "I'm not hungry" becomes skipping a meal. Which then is a coping mechanism and I skip more, which is dangerous. I still do what my mom had me do as a child when I was stressed or sick and that is I eat what sounds good. She fed me a lot of chocolate pudding for breakfast. Now that is sometimes driving through McDonald's because it tends to give me an appetite when I smell the fries. Be very careful...95 was okay on me and that's when I dropped the weight. It takes time to undo. I'm over 100 now and it is much healthier for me. When I was under 95 I looked sick, was obsessed, considered suicide, started cutting (which is also hard to kick), worried people, and lost my ability to remember things. I never lost my period so don't use that as a gauge. It's great you noticed there could be an issue and are trying to keep yourself healthy!

Hi,
Im new here too. Hearing others mention those childhood eating situations makes me remember how i hated eating as a child. I was always so tiny and frail as a child and didnt like the way most food tasted besides sweets. I remember my grandparents constantly telling me i had to eat and how my daycare teachers tried to force feed me and how i would throw up on them. My parents never made an issue they just let me eat the things that i liked but maybe being forced feed by teachers and constantly hearing how i had to eat from other family members made me this way? I have been fine for the past 16 years now, well every now and then ill have a slip and start starving myself and its especially during stress and difficult times and it makes me feel like i have something that i can control. I have a little girl who is 3 years old and she is exactly like me, doesnt want to eat anything besides sweets or her milk bottles and i am really a little worried that she will develop an eating disorder.