Eating Disorders Support Group
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hey all-so you know how i was flipping out about my doctor's appointment? well, god surprised me today. i went back to the exam room, and in walked a female nurse practictioner! the doctor i was assigned to has apparently left the practice or something, because she said she'd be my doc. you have no idea how much anxiety lifted when i found out i wouldn't have to talk to a man about my ED.
anyway, so we talked about my chair, and changing meds, blah, blah, blah.
at one point, she asked me how physically independant i am and if i live on my own. so i said no, but that i'm planning to move out. she asked why. i told her about no bus, no ramp, etc. so she talked to this medicaid case manager there named karen. karen said that there's possibility that she could help me get an apartment much faster. the office is open till 9, so she's gonna make some phone calls and call me tomorrow!
then, my NP and i had the ED talk....
i just sort of blurted it out. i said, "i'm glad you're here instead of dr. lim, because i was REALLY NERVOUS about talking about this with a guy. i binge and starve." and that was it. it was out, just like that. it was much less petrifying than i thought it would be. still terrifying, but not the sort of fear that paralyzes you to your core.i still felt awkward, like i was naked. but it felt good. and i knew deep in my spirit, i was obeying god.i have felt him tugging at my heart to tell my doctor since i started going to that office.
she asked for details, how often i do behaviors, what i'm feeling, why/when i started, etc. also equally terrifying. i had to tell her about mom hitting me, which almost made me cry. she was very concerned because i started the binge end of my ED in 6th grade. she ordered bloodwork immediately.THEY STUCK ME SIX TIMES BECAUSE THEY COULDN'T GET ENOUGH BLODD!!!! :( so now my right arm and hand are sore. my next appointment is in 2 weeks. so it's official. on my "appointment summery" she's listed "eating disorder, unspecified" along my other medical issues.
when she left me alone, i cried tears of relief and gratitude. i have read the bible enough and been to enough church services to have head knowledge that god loves me. but sometimes, i forget he cares about the details. i forget that he wants to be involved in EVERY ASPECT of my life. i couldn't believe that the king of the universe cares enough about me to make sure i had a medical professional i'd be comfortable with today. all the things he has to do, all the people he looks after, and he STILL cares about me on an individual, one on one, basis. my god is surely, without question, an AWESOME GOD!-fallon
anyway, so we talked about my chair, and changing meds, blah, blah, blah.
at one point, she asked me how physically independant i am and if i live on my own. so i said no, but that i'm planning to move out. she asked why. i told her about no bus, no ramp, etc. so she talked to this medicaid case manager there named karen. karen said that there's possibility that she could help me get an apartment much faster. the office is open till 9, so she's gonna make some phone calls and call me tomorrow!
then, my NP and i had the ED talk....
i just sort of blurted it out. i said, "i'm glad you're here instead of dr. lim, because i was REALLY NERVOUS about talking about this with a guy. i binge and starve." and that was it. it was out, just like that. it was much less petrifying than i thought it would be. still terrifying, but not the sort of fear that paralyzes you to your core.i still felt awkward, like i was naked. but it felt good. and i knew deep in my spirit, i was obeying god.i have felt him tugging at my heart to tell my doctor since i started going to that office.
she asked for details, how often i do behaviors, what i'm feeling, why/when i started, etc. also equally terrifying. i had to tell her about mom hitting me, which almost made me cry. she was very concerned because i started the binge end of my ED in 6th grade. she ordered bloodwork immediately.THEY STUCK ME SIX TIMES BECAUSE THEY COULDN'T GET ENOUGH BLODD!!!! :( so now my right arm and hand are sore. my next appointment is in 2 weeks. so it's official. on my "appointment summery" she's listed "eating disorder, unspecified" along my other medical issues.
when she left me alone, i cried tears of relief and gratitude. i have read the bible enough and been to enough church services to have head knowledge that god loves me. but sometimes, i forget he cares about the details. i forget that he wants to be involved in EVERY ASPECT of my life. i couldn't believe that the king of the universe cares enough about me to make sure i had a medical professional i'd be comfortable with today. all the things he has to do, all the people he looks after, and he STILL cares about me on an individual, one on one, basis. my god is surely, without question, an AWESOME GOD!-fallon
I'm happy for ya...I know that "naked" feeling but it's easier once it's out, isn't it?
Also, in my experience, Nurse Practitioners are awesome. I've had two, and both have been more willing to listen and less likely to throw pills at me than any doctor or psychiatrist I've ever seen.
Big hugs:)
I hope when I return to the UK I have the courage to tell my doctor in the same way, think ill ask for a female docotor and just try blurting it out also. Your story has given me inspiration and hope =)
Hope thigns keep getting better for you!!
Rememebr if you ever need to chat im here for you =)