I feel so miserable, like my urge to binge runs my life. I binge almost every single day, at any meal where the portion isn't controlled by someone else (and if it is, I just snack heavily as soon as the meal is over once other people aren't looking). If I don't buy any snacks, I feel stressed/distressed and upset, and I binge on things like condiments or cereal, or, if those aren't available, I feel sick and light-headed, as though I were starving myself. And then I "purge" by fasting for long periods of the day, sometimes as long as 20 or 22 hours, and then binging even more because I'm so hungry. I can't control it. I hate it so much.