Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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squeaker43 07/10/2016

Last year, I lost 104 pounds and was so freaking proud of myself. Now, for some reason, in the last five mos. I have been binging again. I am very well aware of it but I can't seem to stop it. I tell myself, when I go to bed at night, TOMORROW will be a new day. I wake up in the morning and the first thing that I think of is all of the things that I am going to eat during the day. I have put ten pounds back on and it terrifies me that I am going to gain all of the weight back. WTF is wrong with me?? I can't remember how I got the mind set to take all of the weight off and I have been trying and trying to get to that point again and I CAN'T. I just don't understand. I guess I just needed to post and admit that I am on the road to no return, AGAIN. UGH.

CityandColour 07/11/2016

I know what you mean, when i go to bed i always come up with these ellaborate plans, i'm going to get up and exercise etc but when morning comes i never do. Perhaps try to binge on fruit if you can? that way you are still binging but healthier. Highs and dips are normal really, you will get to that point again, it will just take time to get there!

squeaker43 07/11/2016

Aw, thanks, C & C. What amazing little creatures we are. I know that part of my binging is still dealing with my past. It has always been my comfort. I guess I just needed to hear somebody say that I would be okay and you did. ((Hugs)) to you.

Kir 07/13/2016

I'm so sorry to hear about your struggle. I too have dealt with bingeing, losing weight, and then putting weight back on because of the binges. Before you can lose weight permanently, you have to overcome the binge eating. One thing I want you to understand, is that even though it may feel like you HAVE to binge, you are in control. There is a voice in your brain compelling you to eat and eat, but you don't have to listen to that voice. Your true self, the part of your brain that makes your decisions and truly doesn't want to binge, can decide to not obey the voice. Yes it's difficult, but it's possible. Yes it's uncomfortable to not give in, but it's possible. If you don't argue with the voice and instead just acknowledge its request and choose to not do it, the more times you can do this, the less urges you will experience. This is of course takes practice, but i just want you to know that you can stop it.

squeaker43 07/13/2016

Oh, Kir, thank you so very much. That DOES make a lot of sense because I find myself arguing with that voice and constantly giving in. I am going to start practicing it right now and see how well I can do with it. I thank you for the wonderful advise.

Kir 07/14/2016

So glad I could help! Let me know how it goes :)

Time2livelife 07/17/2016

I could have written this. I lost 43 pounds in 4 months and now ive put on 9 pounds in the space of a month and half. Binging on bad foods and drinkong too much cider. I hate myself so bad. I keep saying tomro il stop but then dont just like u. Hugs. Aspiesarah.x

squeaker43 07/17/2016

Hey Sarah, I will hold you up, if you will hold me up. Together, we can do this, just like we are conquering everything else. I hope all is well with you. HUGS

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