We're stuck with our family members but we get to choose our friends ~*~

Sounds like your family has decided to use emotional blackmail on you: Do what they tell you to do or else you are a worthless wad.
Jerks! ;p

Follow your heart and do what feels right to you...wrap up school and then commit to healing yourself. Perhaps they are worried what will come out once you begin therapy... (??)

It's hard....very hard....but ignore the hate and walk away from all their drama. You are amazing and never forget it!

Hugs ~*~

yeah im totally gonna work on me...they could go on there cruise...not that they wukkk...im sure shes just saying that to make me feel bad but after school is done i will just take care of me. illget better

Besides...who says you can't enjoy a great trip on your own? Heck, you can travel the world if you want and w/o people who constantly tear you down.

Love yourself, Babydoll ~*~

ur soooo rightt...i cud travel with my best buds...i reaally wanna go to croatia :) thank u for being so nice to me

I know your mother is doing her best to get to you but don't let her. What's better, saving your life or going on a cruise? Maybe if you look at it this way it will help a little. You are doing the right and brave thing.

saving my life is better than a cruise...just like school i cant go on a cruise if im dead:) ....yeah shes pushing my buttons sooo bad. it makes me wanna cut but i wont. i even told her "mom i havent had my period since october" but she says its normal. its normal for teens to be anemic. it is i understand that but i hate when she dismisses me wen im eing honest.

Awwww hun. That really sucks man. Family can be horrible and traumatic.

Hun you know as well as I do that eating disorders are not common place with haitians or most black communities. The actually ARE common place but noone talks about it.

TBH I think its easier for your mum to tell herself that this isn't real or that you are exaggerating or whatever because if she really believed her little girl had such an awful illness she wouldn't know how to cope. I know its easier said than done but you need to try and remember this and forget her for now. Focus on fixing you. You can deal with her later. When your stronger hun.

Sorry I couldn't be more helpful.

thank you so much...yeah in the haitian culture and pretty much the black community everything is celebrated with food...food is health wealth and all this in this culture...food is love and family....and so i guess me not being a part of it is like me not wanting to be in the family...idkk...i dont care anymore honestly...ill just do me and lose as much as i can before treatment

It;s funny isn't it? i should be encouraging you to try and get better but when you say 'try to lose a bit more before treatment' i'd be a hypocrite if I didnt think the SAME thing in EVERYTHING I do. but hun your going there to get better so making yourself worse before hand cant be good can it????
I shouldn't talk I have put on so much over christmas and new years that I have taken 2 days off sick leave so I can 'properly' starve myself, before I start the gym again next week. Man WHAT are we doing to ourselves?

were hurting ourselves..i know it cant be good but for me if im gonna get better than i need to look it....i just wanna be 130-140..then i can get better and be thin...i dont have that long to go just 30 more pounds...

ive volunteered to babysit just so i can burn calories chasing this baby arund and playing and lifting her and not have to eat. i eat a little to keep me awake and moving but all my energy goes to this baby girl.