Well that just flat out sucks huh?
So what do you want?
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What do you need? Let us know what you want. We can help you, but you have to have a small goal.
When I was desperate and reaching out, I just wanted to be skinny and happy. I wanted to continue killing myself and find some happiness while doing so. The great oxymoron of the newcomer here.
Anorexia, and anorexic thinking, makes no sense.
You make no sense. I'm pegging you as anorexic. We will love you, until you can love yourself.

Of course your stomach is going to hurt like crazy when you eat after living on only 300 cals a day. If you keep going like this you will most certainly die. Please increase your intake slowly.

It is not "good" to be eating only 300 calories or less. Also, when putting any food into your body, quality really does matter. Different foods are also more difficult to digest and will create bloating. I encourage you to try to eat things that make you feel good and are easy on your system. Then you won't get so discouraged about eating and restrict more.

I've found it's not really the food I hate it's the discomfort. Thing is the more I let the discomfort get under my skin and let it grow, it's like it magically draws in more discomfort and anxiety- reminds me of how a magnet can move another magnet when they're close together.
I know that if I skip one meal, I'm going to want to skip two, and then I'll try for three, which sends me skipping days. After I start that, it's a day on, day off, and I want to do more. Before I know it it's two, and three isn't too much longer, the hunger's worse the forth day, might as well go five, and if i'm going to do five days I'd rather do a week.
Every meal that voice in my head, the ED one, speaks up, tells me not to eat, that I don't need the food, that I should save my money since money is tight anyway. I know if I listen to it once, I'll want to listen to it again.
In the beginning the voice screamed at me to skip multiple days, so I focused on eating once every day. It told me to throw up everything I ate- giving that up was the hardest. Then it told me to skip breakfast and lunch, so I made sure to have lunch and dinner. You get the idea.
It fluctuates. It doesn't get better all at once- it won't. It will stay with you for years after this. I made the decision to fight against this October 29, 2008. Before that, I'd kind of tried, but I wasn't really committed to it. I starting seeing my current therapist November of 2009 and was back sliding into ED. It was until May of 2010 that I made the decision to go to a treatment facility and received the help I needed.
Since then I haven't purged- [OMG that's.... eighteen months :) makes me happy] but I have had days where my intake was low. I've been very careful to tell my treatment team when I am struggling and can estimate for them how much I am short by when I think about it for a few moments.
There was about a month gap between my decision to go to treatment and actually getting there. That was really hard; I had to focus on just making it there. I know you're set to go so don't lose hope. Keep your goal (treatment) in mind!

Sorry about the long reply- felt nice to write that out.

thank you all so much for replying....sorry it took me a while to apply ive been super busy. im not underweight at all so i dont think ill die with 300 - cals.

when i eat soup my stomach hurts but not so bad..its the solid foods that hurt so bad idk why. and wen i blend my fruit it doesnt hurt but when i eat it whole and solid it hurts sooo bad.

Biwi good job on not purging for 18mos!! thats good that u try to stay on tack....yeah thats how i am....well if i didnt eat bf why eat lunch and so on til im ready for bed and am like "oh i forgot to eat" really after 4 days the hunger gets worse? for me after 4 i stop getting hungry. i crave alot but the hunger pangs are there,

Oh how it makes me sad to see you justify your behavior! You're counting calories and in complete danger, yet you think "I won't' die from it"
You very well could. I can so relate to your denial!
Sorry to be mean and call bullshit. But that's what friends are for.

ur not mean..ur a friend

seriously tho i mean it...cuz look at me...even if im soo deprived of food i have alot of fat that my body can take ...

Just because you have extra body fat does not mean you should crash diet like that and reduce your calories to 300 a day or less. You need to do it in a healthy way over a longer period of time so that you don't harm yourself. Also, there is never a "quick fix." If you can loose the weight quickly you can gain it back just as quickly. You feel better that way too. Your stomach hurts when you eat because it's not used to the food being there and you"re stretching it out when you put food in. Increase your portions slowly until you are at normal portions. If you eat healthfully you will see results and you'll feel better.