That's a lot to take in...we all know that our ED reacts in crazy ways when we least expect it. Glad you came here for support. Glad you had fun with your former boyfriend and I can imagine how you must be feeling. I am sorry that you are going through all of this. Be careful...you know what you need to do. Keep coming back for support. You are cared for here.

Thanks, we messaged a while back....we both have similiar backgrounds, if you recall. I guess I am just truly overwhelmed right now...I am going to take in a few OA meetings this week, they help a bit, I wish there were ED meetings nearby that I could go to or something, that would be a lot more helpful. Everyone thinks, well, you know you just need to eat, so just do it. I hate that because obviously it does not help. I wish that the doc's office would understand when i tell them I do not want to be weighed because it may exaberate symptoms or otherwise and respect that, they think you have something to hide. I cannnot get on a scale with my back to the numbers otherwise it is a knock drag out fight, and it is not pretty....It makes me crazy !! My collegues at work keep telling me not to loose anymore weight, my boss is concerned and I am concerned for my job as well, if I end up in another hospitalization, even though I have plenty of time off, well it just scares me. They think I don't take care of myself.
Anyhow, you know all about it, I could go on and on right now. I wish I could just have a good try, but, the tears won't even come anymore.

I did not realize this was you. Are you back on your vitamin supplements yet? I hope so...your health is crucial. I am weighed blind and I find it to be very helpful. I hated it at first but once I got used to it, it really took a lot of the stress out of it. I also only weigh at the nutritionist. When I go to the doctor I refuse to be weighed and they just write down "refused." They know why. I know, essentially, how much I weigh but I don't know the fluctuations...but I do know when I am trending downward because my meal plan gets increased or the little bit of exercise that I am allowed gets cut or a supplement gets added. You are very right when you say that you don't want to go back in the hospital...you lose all control when you get admitted and that is no good. You can do this on your own...you have been doing well...maintaining and eating what you need to eat. You have some ground to make up but you can do it and then try to just go back to status quo. Just do what you know works...that's always the best route to take. Private message me if you want.