Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Alliegator
Alliegator
I'm really worried I'm going to start starving mself again. I almost wnt to be anorexic again...I want to be unhealthy and sick. That is so messed up. What is wrong with me. I'm getting fat...I mean I'm not really getting fat because the scale hasn't changed but I really fear I'm getting fat. I should stop eating and being such a pig. gross. my thighs are gross my hips are gross my butt is gross. stupid 145 pounds. I hate my weight. It sounds so high. I kow that because I'm 6ft its healthy but ew. why can't I be a nice 110? or even better a nice 100 pounds. I used to be 120 when I was anorexic. I've gained so much weight since then! I know its just because I matured. I mean I'm almost 18 thats suposed to happen...I didn't actually accumulate more fat. but still ew. 145?! ew.

Sorry I guess this turned into a rant.
deleted_user
deleted_user
the thoughts you are having are dangerous! are you in treatment still? seeing a therapist may be a good idea!
Alliegator
Alliegator
yeah still in therapy
deleted_user
deleted_user
6 feet tall and 110? Oh hon you'd be too unhealthy at that weight.....keep talking to your counselor and find out why you feel the way you do......
deleted_user
deleted_user
hunni
i no how u feel. i also feel like this often.
but u hav to keep talking to your therapist about this and how ure feelings.
keep fighting..please take care of yourself and dont let ED take over again.
deleted_user
deleted_user
are u serious? when u r six feet tall u shood weigh anywhere from 160-180. u r actually underweight. i dont mean to sound rude or anything, but u need to gain weight. i think im unhealthy cuz i am fatter and shorter than u. i weigh 149 pounds and i am five foot three. thats a lot. i want 2 weigh 70.