Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
my own family sometimes makes me sometimes makes me just hate living and hate that im here...thats sad...they sometimes make my ed worse....after they tell me things like i chose not to help myself...i love doing this for attention and mock my therapists and there kindness to be mean or tease...instead of trying to prove to them that i could change..i destroy myself more and more. like i think now my body is hurt but i dont really care...its sad but true...i havent seen my period since october...i bruise fast that never used to happen..by cousin grabbed my arm one time to scare me and he grab my arm kinda hard but if this was a year ago it wuda hurt for a few seconds but he did this on christmas and today it still is soooo sore.
i bang my thigh by accident and its sore for a long time. just as iwas getting used to the fact of going to residential at renfrew my cousin was like alright even if u went during this break and ur their for at least a month and u miss the begining of school wat ar eu gonna do for the rest of the semester stay home? and so again im doomed.
i just feel like going away. thats why i like being drunk cuz its like this stephanie goes away. when i start dorming, they wont see me often
i bang my thigh by accident and its sore for a long time. just as iwas getting used to the fact of going to residential at renfrew my cousin was like alright even if u went during this break and ur their for at least a month and u miss the begining of school wat ar eu gonna do for the rest of the semester stay home? and so again im doomed.
i just feel like going away. thats why i like being drunk cuz its like this stephanie goes away. when i start dorming, they wont see me often
What your family is clearly not understanding is that, ED is NOT a physical problem...it's a MENTAL problem!!! Or should I use the word "condition". I think it sounds nicer. Your body reaps the affects of what the brain is telling it to be true!!! Which is NOT the case...but your body is just the receiver. I think that you have to be careful about how you let them affect you...I know that a lot of times my mom and my brother affect me GREATLY in the area of my ED. They say things that they think are helpful, which turn out to be worst for me in this area and they don't even realize it.
I think what you have to do is keep reminding yourself that YOU know the truth!!! You know that you've been trying to accept and get help. That you've been TRYING really hard to get ahead. You may not be there yet...but you've been trying. And as long as you're honest with YOURSELF!!!!! Then, what they say, may have less of an affect on you. I'm not saying that what they think won't hurt...cause it will, we all want to please our families...even when we don't like them....it's just built into us. So, it may hurt what they think of you...but you don't have to let that affect how you try to recover.
And excuse me missy...what did you say about being drunk and drinking just a day or so ago????? Hmmmmmm. Please take care of yourself my dear. You were doing so well until your little drunken stint. Pick yourself back up and try again. I believe that you can do it. :)
LOL i know i said i wudnt drink agan but i shudve put i wont go overboard again...i now know to stop wen the world starts spiing nd my stomach rumbles nd i get very hot. lol i dont drink of a regular basis tho just socially. i also realize thers this high i get wen i just get better from a hangover. but i never wanna feel like that again .
i think thatll be a new year resolution to start taking care of myself