Hello everyone. I'm a 34 y/o female. I struggled with Anorexia and Bulimia from ages 12 to age 25. Spent the majority of that time in some type of treatment (Inpatient programs, hospitals, Intensive outpatient programs, therapy, support groups, dieticians, etc.) My parents are highly dysfunctional and basically they left everything up to my treatment team. My treatment team basically 'raised' me, and I owe everything in my recovery to them and my own work on recovery.

I have also been in and out of OA and EDA (overeaters anonymous and eating disorders anonymous.) I'm considering going back to OA.

I have been 99% free from Anorexia and Bulimia for 9 years, with little to no eating disorder thoughts at all, and minus a 1 month blip, no behaviors.

Problem is, I'm now a food addict. I am significantly obese. I am also engaged to my partner who I believe is a food addict as well.

We are working at becoming healthier, losing weight, feeling better, etc.

I have recently had a life changing experience (I beat Cancer!!!) and my food addiction and the less than healthy life I have been living, is staring me in the face. I feel as though I have a new lease on life and I want to be as healthy as I can be.

I am OVERWHELMED though. I have a long way to go to physical and emotional health, and I am finding myself wanting instant gratification. Despite all of this, I am definitely not triggered to go back to any of my old Anorexic or Bulimic behaviors.

So I'm not really sure what I'm wanting from this post. I guess just to be heard. Thanks for listening :)