Eating Disorders Support Group

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nobody000
nobody000
i got taken to hospital about 4 weeks ago becausr i could hardly walk i kept passing out and throwing up bile and blood i stayed in hospital over night and it was then that i thought im not right i need help i got sent to a phscy ward and was put on fortisips 4 times a day but only had a few sips every few days i was on loads of vitamins which helped me feel better i was there 3 weeks and they moved me to an eating disorders unit i havnt eaten a ything at all for 5-6 weeks and before that i was eating next to nothin and was drinking hardly anything i would go days without anything at all and now i am here they have kept me on fortisips but i have to have 750cals a day which is way too much i have been here 4 days and already i feel like a elrphant i have refused to drink most of them becausr i know i will gain weight but they said if i cant have them all over the weekend then they are going to tube ceed me i really dont want that to happen i have struggled today but i managed to have the drinks but i know i cant do this everydayi am retaining water i am bloated my ankles are swallen i am terified of being weighed now i cant do it anymore i just cant but i am terified of the tube and they wont let me leave i feel physicaly ok now im not drasticly under weight my bmi is 17 but i feel like its about 50 at the moment i hate this place coz i got to do it all again tomorrow and i know i cant

sorry if you read this and it made no sense at all i cant think straight my head is all over tbe place all i can think about is all the cals in the drinks and how much weight i am gonna gain aaaaggggghhhhhh rant over
hotwheelz
hotwheelz
HUGS! we are always here for you!
mybeach
mybeach
Hon, your post actually really scares me. I am glad you in the ED unit b/c I am afraid otherwise you are going to die. Your body is going to react to the food and water b/c is needs it so much and will hold onto everything it can, to survive. But it will balance out and the body will normalize. However, it has to have a steady stream of nutrients or it will keep going up and down. You have to push through the discomfort now so it can improve. Yes, you will gain weight, you have to in order to survive. But try to remember that there is a difference between gaining weight and getting fat... they are not always the same, especially not in your case. I will keep you in my thoughts as you get better.
jasgall
jasgall
keep reaching out. i'm glad you're there. sounds like that's exactly where you need to be. your body is retaining water because it's not used to getting it. it's trying desperately to keep you alive. take it one moment at a time. one meal at a time. you can do it. you are loved. "it's not gaining weight, it's gaining my life back."-demi lovato
nobody000
nobody000
thanks guys i have realy been struggling they found my tape measure nd took it away from me the voice in my head is driving me insaine they are putting my cals up to 1000 tomorrow i still cant manage with 750 im realy trying but i am failing badly and i know there gonna end up tube feeding me which scares the hell out of me

tomorrow i will try and just consentrate on the drink in front of me at the time instead of worrying about the next one

((((HUGS TO U ALL))))
BeccBecc
BeccBecc
Why don't you tell them you don't want to know how many cals your eating or when they decide to increase. Also, they let you know your weight? You should ask them that you don't want any discussion of number which means mean included, so step on the scale backwards! No cals, no weight, no numbers at all - that INCLUDES blood pressure and pulse, because I know some people with ED will judge how sick they are based on those numbers too. NO NUMBERS. Good that they found your tape measure too. Be strong and ask that. It'll be good for you.
BeccBecc
BeccBecc
Correction:
*...which means WEIGHT included...
nobody000
nobody000
yeah they weigh u once a week i will stand backwards nx tym i cant eat anything or drink anything unless i can see how many cals carbs and fat is in it i dont know how to get past that i have this voice in my head that tells me not to drink the fortisips that im to fat to be here and they are addin cals to my drinks and warping the mirrors i cant get it out if my head i feel like im going mad

i will try anythin ryt now so will give the no numbers a go jus dont know how i will cope with not knowing
mybeach
mybeach
I am totally a numbers person too and feel that i have to know. However, it will make you very anxious not knowing at first but that too will get easier and I promise you won't go crazy from not knowing the numbers. But you do need to give them all up right now. You are in my thoughts!!! HUGS!!!