I wonder if I have an eating disorder or just disordered eating. I eat very healthy. I eat mostly organic, lean protein, complex carbs, etc. I used to binge a few times per week but since I started eating clean, I don't ever eat and get "full". I maybe have one piece of dark chocolate per day and ice cream once or twice per week. However, when my husband would go out of town or if I was out of town, I would plan for weeks what I will eat that night... cheesecake or icecream, etc. and I plan my day/night around that one food. I would rather stay in and eat then go out with friends, etc. I plan what I eat and when I will eat it for every minute of every day. I don't ever put anything in my mouth without thinking about what impact it may have on my weight. Whether it is an apple or piece of chocolate, I won't eat it without thinking of how it plays into my daily intake. Can a person have an eating disorder even if they don't binge on junk? I also hide that I eat anything that might not be clean. I am embarassed to buy ice cream and I won't eat any "junk" in front of someone else. I have never spoken to anyone about this. Then I would thnk about the food and that the other person is thinking about me thinking about food. Does that make sense? Does any of this make sense? Thanks for any input.
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