So, I'm confused...
What is it that you disagree with regarding your diagnosis?
If you are looking for any means to "control your diet" to the point of obsession than likely you have an eating disorder. Sounds to me like you KNOW that you have an issue and are just wanting to put it out there. Most functioning people know that eating under 500 calories a day on any given day is not healthy so what is it that you are asking, exactly? Ok, so you're a vegan - that has zero to do with whether you have an ED or not. Plenty of people are vegan and still maintain a healthy lifestyle/caloric intake. If wanting to be thin is the only reason you're vegan, well...you're likely fighting a losing battle and do indeed have an issue.

I disagree that I have an eating disorder. Period. At the time that I was diagnosed, I was an inpatient in a psych ward and would refuse to eat. The psych said that "Your eating is disordered, it is not normal, therefore you have an eating disorder." He even referred me to a clinic for when I was released which I did not go to. I do not have anorexia - I don't restrict my intake everyday. I do not have bulimia - I don't purge. I do not binge to the extent where it would become a disorder. I just experience "symptoms" or behaviors of an eating disorder, which may be in part because of my BPD. I don't know. I just know that I am concerned about where my current thoughts are headed. I want to restrict, though I never act upon it, because I am weak. Instead of restricting I feel like going back to self-harm, even though I don't think I will (because I am weak)

It sounds like you're confused.

You've listed some unhealthy behaviors that are characteristic of eating disorders, so I'm wondering what you disagree with...is it that you don't engage in these behaviors all the time? Being a vegan has nothing to do with eating disorders unless you are using veganism as a way to control your diet and minimize your caloric intake to unhealthy levels.

None of us here are medical professionals so we really can't give you a diagnosis one way or the other....If you disagree with your diagnosis, but still have your doubts, you can always get a 2nd opinion from a different Dr...perhaps one that specializes in EDs. It might be wise to continue counseling of some sort until you feel you have a better handle on things.

I just put my veganism in there as an fyi. But yes, I don't have these behaviors all the time. I can go from feeling really confident in my body to the point of sexy and then feeling like I look like a piece of absolute chubby crap. I saw a dietitian but I didn't tell her about my "ED". I guess I am confused: I have two halves of me fighting. One side worried about my thoughts and behavior patterns around eating and food within the past year, and the other side that says I don't fit the mold and it's not even that bad so just shut up about it.

Thing is, I am also experiencing related health problems. I might have Crohn's disease which is causing my stomach pain, weight loss, and bowel problems. The doctors are doing a lot of tests and giving me lots of medications but they keep coming back negative. It is very frustrating

My advice? I wouldn't keep obsessing about a diagnosis. Doesn't really matter if you fit the "ED" bill or not - you are having behaviours surrounding your eating/dietary habits that concern you so address those with a counselor. If you don't have one, get one. Even if your thoughts and behaviours are a side effect of your other diagnosis (BPD, Crohn's) getting some in-depth therapy as to how to cope with your issues would be helpful. Does it really matter if you *have* an ED or not? Just get help for the behaviours.

Sounds to me like you are still in the denial phase - which is OK. I think we have all been there. When I heard "you have an eating disorder" I put up a fight. My relationship with food had become my one true love. Food gave me love, food comforted me, food was my only friend and, what I didn't know at the time, was that food helped me cope with a chaotic world (my personal world). For me to accept the diagnosis of "Eating Disorder" it meant I had to heal it. Which meant the only thing that helped me survive from day to day was going to be taken away from me. And I couldn't accept that. So I denied it to myself for many many,,way too many,,,,years.

Healing is scary no matter what it is you are healing. You can remain in denial and continue studying your behavior with food until you are ready to accept it. And who knows, maybe you don't have an ED at all and that will be wonderful news. But I agree with forestfreek when she says that therapy can help no matter what. I am a huge advocate for therapy as it has helped me so much in my life. It has always moved me forward. Can't hurt to give it a try. The worst it can do is help you feel better.

I was in denial for years. Sometimes I catch myself still in denial and I've had it for 20 years. Just keep an eye on those moments that don't seem quite right.