i was getting my dinner ready tonight and i was thinking about stuff.....i've had some ED urges recently, but i've made myself stick to my meal plan and eat everything that i'm supposed to.....i've restricted a little bit and i'm not really sure if i'll ever NOT restrict.....anyway, i was thinking about the impact that my ED has on my life and i thinking about disappointment...i was thinking about how much my therapist and dietitian will be when i tel lthem that i restricted.....i know that they won't be, because they constantly tell me that...here's the thing though: i don't wanna let my ED down....like i don't wanna disappoint those thoughts in my head telling me that i'm fat and that i need to lose weight and that i need to restrict to be healthy.....i'm a people pleaser and i just feel like if i let anybody down it should be my therapist and/or my dietitian.....i can't let my ED down.....i dunno...i feel like i need the approval of someone and as long as i have that approval i know that i'm doing something right and that'll make me happy......i know that if i'm upset i can restrict and then i get that approval from my ED and i'll be happy....i dunno.....does this make sense to anyone else??? and does anyone have an idea or any advice on how to reframe those thoughts????