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i wrote two letter to ED.....i thought i'd post them here and see what input you guys have if any.....if you guys wanna respond that's cool, if not that's cool too.....the fiorst one is why i want it to leave me and the second one is why i want it to stay....thanks for reading if anyone does
Dear ED,
Go away. Please. I dont like you. Youre a bully. Youre an abuser. Go away. You hurt my mind, my body and my feelings. Your voice is constantly in my head telling me false facts. I know that food=fuel. Food is good for me. Restricting isnt a good thing. Restricting hurts my body. You compare me to other people and their bodies. Everyone is supposed to be different. Everyone is supposed to be different shapes and sizes. You tell me that there are certain foods that I should ignore. That I shouldnt eat. That I should stay away from. But I know that youre wrong. There are no bad foods. You tell me that Im fat, ED. That hurts my feelings. You tell me that Im stupid. That Im weak. That I dont deserve love. Ill never be loved. That I need you. That youre the only one that will ever love me as long as I do what you say. Well Im tired of doing what you want me to do! I wanna do what I wanna do!! I wanna eat healthy and be healthy for the rest of my life. I deserve love. My family and friends love me. When you tell me that they dont, youre lying to me. I dont like a relationship thats based on lies. And thats all this relationship is. Lies. I dont know why you lie to me. I dont know why you abuse me. I dont know why you bully me. Ive been bullied and abused before and maybe you think that I dont care enough about myself to stand up for myself, but I do. Im telling you right now that I want you to leave. Go away ED. I hate you and you need to go.
~Valerie
Dear ED,
Stay. Please dont leave me. I need you. Youre the only one that I can trust. The things that you say are right. I know theyre right because of the logic that you provide. You give me facts to back you up. I wanna be loved. ED, youll always be here for me and I need that consistency. My therapist and my dietitian force me to challenge you. I try to. Sometimes your voice is so loud and I want you to shut up. But I know the reason that youre so loud is because youre right. Food=fuel. Thats what I was taught at the hospital. You tell me otherwise. Maybe youre right. Youre right about everything else. Youre right that Im overweight and fat. My doctor says I am. That Im overweight. That I need to lose weight. And theres proof that if I restrict I will eventually lose weight. ED youre right. I dont know why I doubted you to begin with. I dont know why I wanted you to leave in the first place. ED, please stay. I know youll always be here for me and that youll never leave me. Please stay.
~Valerie
Dear ED,
Go away. Please. I dont like you. Youre a bully. Youre an abuser. Go away. You hurt my mind, my body and my feelings. Your voice is constantly in my head telling me false facts. I know that food=fuel. Food is good for me. Restricting isnt a good thing. Restricting hurts my body. You compare me to other people and their bodies. Everyone is supposed to be different. Everyone is supposed to be different shapes and sizes. You tell me that there are certain foods that I should ignore. That I shouldnt eat. That I should stay away from. But I know that youre wrong. There are no bad foods. You tell me that Im fat, ED. That hurts my feelings. You tell me that Im stupid. That Im weak. That I dont deserve love. Ill never be loved. That I need you. That youre the only one that will ever love me as long as I do what you say. Well Im tired of doing what you want me to do! I wanna do what I wanna do!! I wanna eat healthy and be healthy for the rest of my life. I deserve love. My family and friends love me. When you tell me that they dont, youre lying to me. I dont like a relationship thats based on lies. And thats all this relationship is. Lies. I dont know why you lie to me. I dont know why you abuse me. I dont know why you bully me. Ive been bullied and abused before and maybe you think that I dont care enough about myself to stand up for myself, but I do. Im telling you right now that I want you to leave. Go away ED. I hate you and you need to go.
~Valerie
Dear ED,
Stay. Please dont leave me. I need you. Youre the only one that I can trust. The things that you say are right. I know theyre right because of the logic that you provide. You give me facts to back you up. I wanna be loved. ED, youll always be here for me and I need that consistency. My therapist and my dietitian force me to challenge you. I try to. Sometimes your voice is so loud and I want you to shut up. But I know the reason that youre so loud is because youre right. Food=fuel. Thats what I was taught at the hospital. You tell me otherwise. Maybe youre right. Youre right about everything else. Youre right that Im overweight and fat. My doctor says I am. That Im overweight. That I need to lose weight. And theres proof that if I restrict I will eventually lose weight. ED youre right. I dont know why I doubted you to begin with. I dont know why I wanted you to leave in the first place. ED, please stay. I know youll always be here for me and that youll never leave me. Please stay.
~Valerie
deleted_user
wow, I feel so much like this it's crazy. like, I can't decide if I want it to go away or stay. im completely torn.
milo91
These letters are so revealing to the thoughts that plague us so often, I think that many of us can relate. We know that it's wrong... but often it feels right. I hope that through writing letters you can find strength :)
CutieKathy
I am reading these and i am crying. it's exactly how i feel with my eating disorder. :(
ArisingFromTheAshes
It is how I feel too. Those lies that here and how I don't want to listen to them, but I struggle with actually not listening to them.
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