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Constant worry

Samm710
Samm710

I restrict all food intake, exercise constantly and obsess over calorie intake. I usually try to fast all day and then have a light meal at dinner. I don't do this because I want to. I do it because of the anxiety I get when I eat food. I'm scared to death of gaining weight. I lost 30 pounds in the last 6 months and I am currently 104 pounds. I just want to talk to someone who understands the feeling. I just ate a small amount of food and I know I'll be freaking out about it until I get to workout and weigh myself again. I also know because of this small meal before dinner I'll be starving myself for days and mentally beating myself up constantly. 

Anni123
Anni123
I completely understand. I am in recovery currently, and I went through the same struggles. But I want to tell you... It does get better. There is a rainbow after the storm.
Talk to someone. I was scared to death last year of seeing a councilor. I thought hey would tell me how stupid I was and how wrong everything I was feeling was. But they didn't. They UNDERSTOOD. And they listened. And believe me when I say it was the best feeling in the whole wide world.
Gaining weight may scare you, but your weight does not define you. I used to think my appearance was all that mattered and told myself that everyone who saw me judged me. But in reality we judge ourselves more than anyone else ever would. Weight is just a number. And when we let it get to our head we hardly have time for anything else.
I believe you can overcome this. It may be scary and it won't be easy but it will be worth it. I promise.
Idk how this works but message me if u can! Stay strong
stillfighting2016
stillfighting2016
I hope that this message finds you well. I can say that I know the emotional turmoil that comes when you cave and end up eating, even if it is a small amount. I think that it is impossible for you to just snap and go back to regularly eating, especially if you have been doing this for awhile. Try not to be hard on yourself. Unfortunately, it is a struggle and a journey and if you eat, try to look at it as one small step towards a happier you. I know it is easier said then done. Feel free to message me whenever if you want to talk or need someone! I am here for you, as many other people are as well.
tuxedomck
tuxedomck
I am so sorry to hear about the troubles you are currently going through, I know it is difficult. Are you currently receiving any treatment or seeing anyone for help? I know that can be a very scary first step, but it's a step you must take if you wish to recover. Feel free to post on here anytime, I can't begin to tell you how many people reached out to me when I first came on to DS years ago. I still keep those friendships very close to heart and they got me through the most difficult times. Try to take things one step at a time. One bite at a time if you have to. Feel free to message me if you need to talk.