Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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CeeCee4 07/17/2019

Omg I have been struggling I feel like my whole life. I'm 36 years old now and at a very early age 10 or so have had Dysfunction with food and body image.

I have been in recovery if you would call it that for several years with minor hiccups of bulimia behaviors. But the past 2 months have been horrible with daily purging for 4 weeks and before that at least 4 times a week. I feel like I can't control myself I know it's in my mind.

I'm so upset at myself for the lack of self control not sure what to do from Here just wanted to talk with others who are in similar situations.

I feel like I'll never be completely free from my eating disorder. I hate my body so much. It makes me sad that can't love my body. I have been having mini panic attacks when out no clothes I can wear and feel safe. My anxiety is through the roof.

I know the damage bulimia causes. I'm still suffering from dental erosion. Gerd. Constipation. Heart pain. I feel like I want to Be locked away for 2 weeks and have my meals controlled so I can stay on track

Maybe I can meal prep everyday

Something because I feel like I'm in crisis mode

KayBeth 07/21/2019

I’m a similar age and have been in recovery from anorexia for about 8 years but it still is there at the back of my mind and just gives a little tug now and then. A lot of habits have gone and I’m a healthy weight but I can see how I could get drawn in quickly. Cbt with an excellent therapist I didn’t really like at first because she pushed me to challenge my response to situations really helped. Until you start reacting in different ways then you’ll have the same outcome. Maybe look at ways you could improve your body image or try mindfulness so you can focus on the now when you panic. You have to take action to push that voice down and change things. I don’t think it ever goes away completely but it’s not as loud and I’ve ignored it for a long time. I may relapse but i’ll take one day at a time. Don’t beat yourself up for the bad days you’re doing a great job for ignoring the voice most of the time.

agse 07/21/2019

I"m sorry that you are struggling so much right now. I want you to know that you are not alone. We all struggle. We all have relapses at time. It's so easy to fall back in to old ways when they have always come so natural for us. It sounds like you have recently started backsliding again. Has there been any changes in your life to bring on added stress? Any relationship issues? I know these are a couple of things that always tempt me to want to want to binge/purge. Often times, the act comes from what we are feeling inside and it is so important to acknowledge those feelings and learn to cope in a healthier way. Are you talking to a therapist at all? That was one of the biggest things that has helped me overcome my ED. If not, I would strongly encourage you to do so. Healing is possible. Don't lose hope. Also know, your body does not define your worth. I know it's so easy to listen to the culture and believe that our body is what defines us. It doesn't. You are beautiful and you are valuable just for who you are. Believe that. You have nothing to prove to anyone. I hope you can find peace and learn to love yourself someday!

srose 07/25/2019

I am in the same exact boat right now. have been managing everything fine for years, but fell into a rut and cannot escape. i've likewise been thinking about going inpatient, ceecee, but don't want to take the time from work. it's crisis mode over here, too, though, so i am considering it.

Prycejosh1987 10/30/2020

Self control comes through discipline.

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