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Bulimia in the making

foodobsessed
foodobsessed

Hello,



I've recently started bingeing and purging. It started when I gained 10 lbs...because I couldnt stop bingeing. Logically, I thought....how can I continue to binge but not gain weight? Throwing up. I can't control my eating so it seems like the only solution. OBVIOUSLY this is the beginnings of a terrible life that I cannot start.



When I do not binge, I make these grandiose plans to diet. For example, today, I am planning to fast, and then starting tomorrow for the next 10 days i plan to eat an egg-mono diet.  I am going on vacation in 14 day and I need to lose weight fast!! I am 5'7 and 158 lbs. Just 6 months ago I was 141 lbs. 



I am too obsessed with my weight and with losing weight. I need to stop this. 

CityandColour
CityandColour
Restricting your diet too much could lead to more binging so i would try to avoid that as much as possible, try to start with a reasonable diet where you are getting enough food to avoid binging urges, when you do have binging urges then try to binge on fruit, that way it is healthier and not as much guilt will be associated with it. My advice is to make a healthy diet plan with enough food and try to stick to it as much as possible
forestfreek
forestfreek
Coming from a 30 year veteran of bulimia my advice is to go and get help IMMEDIATELY. Eating disorders are NOT about food. I get what cityandcolour is saying and yes, a healthy diet is extremely important but b/p very shortly becomes an addictive behaviour that gets out of control and impedes your life and health. Trust me - mine started exactly the way you are describing yours and I thought I was able to control it. I was very, very wrong. By the time I admitted that I was in need of help a lot of time, money and missed opportunities had passed. Believe me when I say that EDs WILL ruin your life. Go and get help NOW while it's still in it's early stages. Studies show that EDs are most treatable when they are in their initial stages.
Good luck!
Jen
danyehl
danyehl
Jen is absolutely right. The problem is way deeper then just food so its important to get to the root of the problem (and get help) before it escalates which I know is way easier said then done. My issues also started this way and before I knew it I became obsessed with this shitty cycle that out of nowhere consumed my life. It was sad that I didn't even see it as a huge problem for years until it started to take a huge toll on me mentally and made me depressed,damaged relationships I had with people, and started to give me a whole list of health problems as a result. Its an addiction and once you are hooked will be very hard to break. Please get help now and don't make the same mistakes as me!
Kir
Kir
Stopping bingeing has to happen before you can lose weight. Like stated above, restricting leads to binges. You brain thinks you need large amounts of food because it thinks you're starving. So it's urging you to eat to survive.

Losing weight fast is never a good thing either, nor is it sustainable. Your weight will come off naturally if you stop the binge cycle...which I know is a struggle for you right now. But know that the binges won't stop if you're not eating enough.