My beautiful Fallon, I just replied to your last post about bisexuality not even knowing that you and I both have EDNOS. I can entirely understand how that can be triggering for your eating disorder. Eating disorders and anxiety often stem from our own self perception and our fears of judgement of others. We think other people see all the flaws that we so deeply internalize.

LISTEN TO ME - restricting is not going to help you feel better. Biologically, depriving your body of necessary nutrients is only going to increase your rates of anxiety and depression. Your poem about being a princess says it all honey. Print it out and put it somewhere you can see often (like your wallet.) Pray for peace and strength. When all else fails ACT OPPOSITE. Your eating disorder says don't eat? Go right then and eat to shut that stupid bitch up! Your eating disorder says you aren't worth? Read your poem outloud. Your eating disorder says God hates you because you're bi? Go read your Bible and remember that God IS love and cannot and would not choose to abandon you NO MATTER WHAT. You got this!!

I have to absolutely agree with millshol... as hard as it may be, don't restrict, well try your hardest at least. You are YOU and being bisexual can not take your identity away.

Dear Fallon,

So much of what the Bible says is judgmental or sounds that way. But the most important lesson of Christianity is that God is Love. And you are created in God's image... if you feel in your heart, you will know that God would not create you as something He would or could not love.
Whatever your sexual inclination is, as long as you express it from love, you are being a loving Christian. That is my deepfelt conviction.

Sorry to read you are harming yourself... I so know the feeling and drive, all the fear and despair beneath it.
All I can say is, you are beautiful and safe in God's hands. You already are that butterfly your icon tells you about :D

Fallon you know I care for you & I'll never judge you.

I'm also dealing with this same issue. Only you can allow it to affect your recovery. Are you talking about it with your therapist? You can always call me no matter what number's still the same, I'm also Christian and not sure how to discuss with church friends, but they say about others to love the person no matter what..

You should try to set up a meal plan and stick to it the best you can. We should talk as I'd like to catch up and let you know what's going on with me plus I care about you & your health.

I'm always here if you need to chat or text.

Be Gentle with yourself and work on a small meal plan to start and add a little at a time. No Reason to Give Ed more control.

Always thinking of ya
Derek

Thank you to everyone. Derek, yes, 2 weeks ago I opened up to my therapist about it. She was supportive. I will call you as soon as I can. My phone is not on right now. I'm having some financial issues. I quit my job 3 months ago after they out right STOLE my writing . I have not been able to find another one. I'm in the process of getting my Medicaid back too. Thank you all for you continued support & friendship.

Religions, including Christianity, are evolving to be much more accepting than they used to be. The only mention in the bible is one in Leviticus, that also says it's wrong to divorce, to wear clothing made of multiple materials, many things that are mainstream. It was written in a different time and has been taken out of context. It's going to be much harder on you and more stressful - more fueling for your ED and self harm - for you to hide your true feelings.

Where I live, there are multiple churches open to LGBT people. They even had booths at Pridefest. Just like it's no longer strange for there to be interracial couples, it is getting more accepted as normal for there to be gay couples.