Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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bambi1012 10/22/2016

hey everyone . I've just joined today because I am at the end of my tether with my relationship with food , I started out with anorexia at 17 which turned into bulimia from which I recovered from once I got pregnant in 2009 . I spent 4 years ed free then decided to join slimming world , I lost 3 an a half stone in 8 months and loved that feeling of being skinny again ..and became obsessed. But the breakdown of my relationship caused me to start bingeing on food and now I can't stop ..my weight fluctuates by half a stone in just a couple of weeks ...I restrict then binge massively ! But recently I am unable to restrict and each day i binge ..I'm so frightened that one day I'm going to eat so much that my stomach will burst and my little boy will be alone :( I also cannot deal with looking this way and desperately want to get the extra weight off . Please help I do not know what else I can do !

Dancinggirl 10/22/2016

Hi,
I just joined yesterday and said that I binge eat out loud for the first time. I know how you feel with that. If you would like to talk I am here for you.

forestfreek 10/22/2016

I'm sorry that you are dealing with this again, bambi. Have you kept up with any kind of ED aftercare or counselling?

bambi1012 10/22/2016

Hi laya well done for sharing it for the first time it's a massive thing . How are you feeling about it? Same here if you need to chat just message me I have a lot of advice for others just neverworks for me! X

bambi1012 10/22/2016

Forestfreek I have had about 2 years of psychotherapy and then 6 months cbt and then another 6 months counselling , the tools are there and I know what to do but Eddy wins every time . Eddy is what I call the Ed

shelbi29 10/22/2016

You are not alone feeling like this.

1234567a 10/22/2016

Im sorry your not doing well I had a bad day myself because I have anarexia so I staved myself all day without meaning too I lost my feeling of being hungery and now im finally feel hungery.

LuckyEmpath 10/25/2016

When I was 19 I became a non-purging bulimic. I would binge and starve. Each phase was about a 2 week cycle. This continued until about a year ago (I am 49). I have been healing from childhood sexual abuse and I am finally at a point where I can focus on healing the eating disorder. It took me about 6 months to heal the starve cycle to the point where I no longer feel I need to starve myself. This left me with the binge cycle to contend with and it has not been easy. I have had to do some real soul searching to figure out why I binge and have found that it is always to prevent myself from feeling something...usually anger. I have managed to calm the binge to the point where I don't mindlessly and frantically eat everything in the house. I am more aware of what I am eating. But I am still gaining weight. Now when I feel a binge pulling at me I stop and ask "What should I be feeling" because I now understand that all my binging is to cover up (swallow) feelings I don't want to feel. Once I identify the feeling I give myself permission to express it and release it. It is definitely a work in progress but I do feel I will fully heal this once and for all.

I will say that I had no idea the depth of issues that caused my eating disorder. I have been working on my healing for almost 7 years and can only now focus on the eating disorder. And while working on it I am uncovering more things. There is no way I could have healed this with a 6 month intensive program that I know others have been through. I don't know how anyone could heal in that short time. But I suppose some do and I am happy that they can.

IsaRo19 10/29/2016

Hi bambi, I'm sorry you are having to go through this.

I know you're probably busy and it's scary to seek help, but I think you should try and see a therapist again. I know you feel like Eddy keeps winning, but it wont. You are stronger than it. One day you will be able to stamp Eddy down every time it keeps trying to come up but you have to take the steps to get there and you shouldn't have to go at it alone!

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