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Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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jasgall 04/29/2016

Here's a general synopsis of why I am a mess right now.
My cat-who had pretty much trained herself to be my emotional support animal-died in my arms from acute kidney failure the day before my birthday. I'd raised her from 6 weeks. She was 6 1/2 years old.
For the last 2 weeks I've had migraine headaches DAILY without the help of Hydrocodone because the idiot federal government wants to treat all people with chronic pain as if we're drug addicts.
I've bonded with a cat I can't adopt because my dad won't let me even though I pay my own bills, am 28, and would never abandon an animal.
I fell today and am in ridiculous pain without proper medication
I had a PTSD panic attack yesterday morning. Thanks Facebook.
My dad makes me feel like an idiot for having PTSD.
My therapist is out of her office all week and I won't be able to see her till the 10th!
Ahhhhhgggfxuffdzt!! I WANT TO SCREAM AND CUT AND BINGE AND CHEW AND SPIT
HELP

gramybear 04/29/2016

I want to say how sorry I am that you lost your baby. I have a dog who is going to be 15 in June and I worry all the time about losing her. But I believe all the animals are in heaven playing together. That is just how I feel.
I can't understand why you can't have another baby. That seems so very unfair.
Please don't let anyone make you feel like an idiot or any other negative feeling for having PTSD. You are not alone and I hope you will join the PTSD site here on DS too.
I can understand your anger over the Federal Government. I talked to my Pharmacist and he said he's filling more prescriptions for Hydrocodone than ever before. Which tells me the doctors are giving the wrong people the medication that severely need. it! I am in the process of writing to whoever will listen. I too suffer with Migraines so I know how horrific your pain is. You are not alone! Please let us support you and help however we can. Please don't hurt yourself.

forestfreek 04/30/2016

I totally get it jasgall.....when the shit hits the fan in life all I want to do is run to the comfort of dysfunctional behaviours to alleviate all of the pain and stress. I know you posted this yesterday so I hope you managed to not hurt yourself in any way. That's rough that your counsellor is away until the 10th. Do you have a friend or family member (not your dad, obviously) that you feel comfortable confiding in? If not write down how you are feeling in a journal - either on good ole pen and paper or here on DS. And please feel free to keep opening up on here or to message me if you need someone to talk to. We all care.
HUGS
Jen

mybeach 05/01/2016

I know my response is delayed but I wanted to acknowledge that you are really going through a tough time. Sending you my thoughts and strength and hope you are doing ok!

jasgall 05/02/2016

Update: for those concerned, I did not hurt myself or engage in ED or SH behaviors the other day. I spent some time snuggling my sister's kitty Loki who has become particularly attached to me since my little princess Maria passed away. I also called one of my "team members" at my mental health center to sort of suds things out.
At my Dr, appt. Weds. she's going to refer me to pain management. My hope is that pain management and I will begin talking about keeping me on Hydrocodone, prescribing massages or other things to relieve pain, and (hopefully) getting me into a neurologist bc migraines.

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