I need to talk about this with someone. I had a horrible binge yesterday. The most pathetic part about it is the fact that I was volunteering for this program with children. We eat at our school caf every thursday night and I usually skip out on that part but this time was horrible. I ate an absurd amount of food right in front of the kids. They were probably thinking I was a hog and disgusting. I left the table and went and spent 30 minutes in the cafeteria bathroom getting ill. I felt like such shit afterwards and could not enjoy my time with the kids. Was that selfish? To B/P when I'm volunteering....? It made me real anxious and I almost broke down. I just need someone to cry with right now..:'(....I was going to call my roomate but I decided against it. She was with her boyfriend and she never gets to see him so at least I didnt do that selfish thing last night. My other roomie knew something was up but I cannot talk to her like I can my other one. I dunno... this is helping a little..
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