Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I'm back. But not because I just started a relapse. Unfortunately I've been struggling since I've been here around 7 years ago. Went to treatment a few times since being on here and moved around a lot. Currently I have no stable home. After leaving treatment 4 months ago I had no where to go except fly across the country to my parents. I haven't lived with them in over 10 years. Needless to say, it has not been a good experience and I'm in a bad relapse both restricting and binging/purging. I hate how secretive I have to be. I hate that I'm doing this again after 17 years of this horrible struggle. I was SO close last time. Then shit hit the fan and here I am again falling down. I've been so depressed as well and there is no understanding from my parents that I have zero energy to do much. My body is so tired all the time.
I guess I'm writing this because I feel so alone and not sure what to do. Sorry if this is all over the place. I'm so tired and really sad and alone.
I guess I'm writing this because I feel so alone and not sure what to do. Sorry if this is all over the place. I'm so tired and really sad and alone.
Did you leave treatment early or were you finished the program? Also what type of after care did you have set up? EDs are a in-depth problem that IMO need YEARS of treatment sometimes (in the form of counselling or group support, not necessarily intense in-house treatment). Are you being treated for your depression?
Sorry so many questions....lol. Just trying to get to know your situation.
Jen
Forestfreak.....i was actually in treatment for a long time, but got transferred 3 times which made it difficult. I did well in the first program but when it came to PHP they wouldn't accept me in the program. Anyways. the last program I was at (left the first week of january 20160 suddenly closed down within 2 days notice. It was run VERY poorly. I gave up everything to go to treatment so had no where to go. My plan was to do Residential, PHP, and IOP and make a new life for myself in that area. I never wanted to come back to the city (and state) where I am now. I'm reminded daily by my parents how I'm not welcome in their home, plus my mom is a huge part of my trauma. I have no desire to be in their home anyways yet I have no where to go until I can find myself some help (have some options in mind but need to get insurance first).
I'm currently not seeing a therapist. She dropped me saying that i need residential. It's not so easy to just go. I am on medication for depression but it only helps so much.
Thanks for caring about my situation:)
Also, try and find a new counsellor ASAP. No counsellor should be dropping because you need to go to residential treatment. If you are in a city, there should be other options.
I too am back after many years of what I thought was recovery and understand how the feels are overwhelming and can consume you.
Keep your head above water and do what you can to see some light in the day.
Sending love and light.
I'm on disability due to being so unwell so right now a job isn't a possibility. I am actually looking to get into a treatment center asap in another state. Get away, get help, and not come back. I learned from this for sure. I hope and pray that I'm able to go to treatment and get the support I really need.
@SecretWishes...Thanks. I appreciate your supportive words. Please keep fighting too. I am sending you positive thoughts. xo