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Hey guys, I hope you're all doing well. Anyways, I was just wodnering if anybody else deals with this oxymoron of a disorder? It's so strange, because my eating habits are always to the extreme. I'll starve for a while, during which time I feel lin control and purposeful, and then I'll go through periods of binges, where I feel worthless and hopeless. For me personally, I usually binge on healthy foods, and my daily caloric intake never exceeds 200 calories during binges. But I was curious to see if I was the only contradictory victim of ED here?
MermaidSinger
lol i meant my calories never exceed 2000
deleted_user
yea except i dont binge with healthy food theres never any in the house so i always turn to junk food
deleted_user
I do the same sort of thing. I either binge and purge, or I don't eat much at all. I'm trying to find a "middle of the road" way to eat.
deleted_user
ED's are definately an oxymoron for most. I struggle with this same issue for some time...
deleted_user
I used to do the same thing. Starve and stuff, horrible trap. I was so confused and didn't understand it. I still don't understand it completely, even after treatment. You are definitely not alone in this. XOXO
deleted_user
I'm caught up that cycle as well...When I am restricting I feel so in control, but when I do what I consider to be a binge I feel totally out of control and anxious..
deleted_user
your situation isn't so contradictory or abnormal at all - i think it's just a natural part of the disorder. your disorder compels you to starve as it gives you power, but after starving for a certain amount of time the body takes over and takes in the calories it needs to survive. it's mainly instinctual, if you don't eat for a long enough time sooner or later your body will take over and eat the food it needs and wants. the black and white thinking (starving or eating everything) is a huge part of the ED mindset as well. don't worry, you're not an eating disordered anomaly of sorts, what you're going through is i think pretty common in people with EDs.
Slimpics
Yep, I'm TOTALLY an all-or-nothing, black & white personality too. In ALL aspects of my life.
deleted_user
I go through similar cycle...Restrict - purge by overly exercising, then binge - eat what my body wants, then feel guilty and the whole cycle starts again...I feel like the childhood song "the wheels on the bus go round and round"
deleted_user
i too go witout eating just water and coffe and bubble gum for flavor plus vitamins. then ill bing and purge cause i miss being full but ill feel like ive betrayed my sel so ill trow it out. another weird thing i do is ill chew up food in my mouth and instead of swallowing it i pour it out of my mouth into a cup, then i see all that doesnt go in me and fell proud. how stupid is that.
MermaidSinger
thank you guys so much for responding. It makes me feel so much less alone to know that I'm notthe only one!!!
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